tumbling towards ecstasy

Review: Common Man

2011-09-04T07:17:00.001+11:00

Recently after hiking the Welch-Dickie trail, we went to the Common Man in Ashland, NH. To my delight, the head chef is vegan.

Welch-Dickie Hike

The staff went out of their way and concocted a half portion of vegetable sauté with quinoa pasta and lemon vinaigrette. Also, I had the bar make up a lemonade with muddled strawberries and mint. Yum!

Quinoa pasta with vegetable saute

Lemonade with mint and muddled strawberries

Weekend in the Berkshires... in CT

2011-08-23T07:36:00.000+11:00

Thai Crunch Salad (minus the cruelty)

So after spending the morning putting around Lenox, my mom and I left to meet my aunt and cousin at Foxwoods for a relaxing dinner. We went to CPK, a fav of mine when I'm in the area. There I got the Thai Salad with no chicken and extra avocado and a virgin pina colada. Numminess. After a lovely dinner, we bunkered down in our hotel room at the MGM, quickly falling asleep in the amazing beds.

The next day, the our of us left for Mystic Aquarium, only about 20 minutes away. A new place to visit, and surprisingly vegan friendly, considering. (Apparently, one of the owners is a vegan). They had macrobiotic vegan dumplings and gluten-free fruit snacks. Win. I spent a brilliant day with my family then ran off to Boston for work.

But what a nice reality break.

Weekend in the Berkshires

2011-08-22T14:36:00.001+11:00

Hoping to up my sanity points before diving headlong into my new Master's while working, I decided to go West.

The trip was supposed to involve camping in Tolland State Forest, while hiking nearby trails. And in the beginning it did.

My mother and I arrived later than expected (read: after dark) to the campground. Here we quickly set up camp and crashed out. In the AM, she struggled to start a fire with damp wood while I cut cantaloupe. Success on both parts though. We had tea and cooked lunch to pack.

Seeing reports of t-storms in the evening we set off on our hike. We had intended to take Gilmore trail and then an access road to another trail that led to the top of a nearby mountain. But, nature had other plans. Instead we got to the beginning of the second trail and the skies became gloomy. Back we went, arriving to camp with a minute to spare before the downpour.

We quickly reserved a night at the local B&B, Brook Farm Inn in Lenox. A vegetarian inn with afternoon tea and homey accommodations. Good thing too because there was a funnel cloud seen two hours later in Pittsfield, maybe 15 minutes from where our tent was. Eek!

Veggie Burger at Firefly with Sweet Potato Fries

Once settled, we ate out for dinner at Firefly, a local trendy bar/restaurant with some veg-friendly grub. Lenox is surprisingly devoid of vegan friendly fare. We split the caprice salad (ask for the rock salt on the side). And I had the veggie burger minus the bun with sautéed mushrooms and a side of amazing sweet potato fries. Yum. Little on the pricey side but all in all a decent meal.

Then we were off to our evening's entertainment: "Ludwig Live". A cabaret show about Beethoven. It was cute and well performed. However, kitchy musical theater is not my favorite genre and I've seen the Jewish mother joke enough to be only slightly amused. My mother highly enjoyed the show and I just wanted to gear him keep playing the pieces. I think I need to get to see more live classical.

Anyway, I'm back at the inn and in need of sleep. Night!

Design: Nurses Care 4 Haitian Children

2011-07-14T04:30:00.008+11:00

Here is some recent work for a non-profit called Nurses Care 4 Haitian Children. Until I get a proper portfolio on this site - I'm adding it here.

Original Logo

Original Flyer

New Logo

New Flyer

Food: Recipe - Apple Pie Smoothie

2011-07-12T00:32:00.001+11:00

Serves 1

Ingredients

1/2 cup apple cider or apple juice
1/2 cup vanilla soymilk
1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce
1 T almond butter
1/4 t pumpkin pie spice
1/4 t ground cinnamon
1 T Trader Joe's soy protein powder

Method

Put all ingredients in blender and blend. If you'd like, you could add soy vanilla yogurt for creaminess.

Nutrition

Per serving (about 10oz): 320 calories (106 from fat), 12g total fat, 0g saturated fat, 0mg cholesterol, 69mg sodium, 36g total carbohydrate (3g dietary fiber, 26g sugar), 19g protein

Photography - Chinatown Festival

2011-07-08T03:25:00.000+11:00

Chinatown Main Street Festival

Boston, MA

June 24th 2011

Photography - Lovell & Bourdelais Engagement

2011-07-08T03:19:00.002+11:00

Lovell & Bourdelais Engagement

Old Stone Church at Wachusett Reservoir

May 30th, 2011

Photography - MCPHS Graduation

2011-07-08T03:15:00.002+11:00

MCPHS Graduation

Worcester, MA

May 15, 2011

Food: Weekly Macrobiotic Meal Plan - Part 2

2011-02-27T02:02:00.002+11:00

The Weekly Macrobiotic Meal Plan

Breakfast: Brown Rice Porridge with mushrooms and miso
Snack: Mini Banana
Lunch: Polenta & Garbanzo beans in gravy
Snack: Trail Mix or Mini Lara Bar
Dinner: Tempeh sausage, sauteed bok choy, brussel sprouts
Snack: Apple
Beverages: seltzer water with pomegranate juice, twig tea, green tea, mint tea

Overall, this week went fairly well. My cravings for sugar have diminished somewhat. On Wednesday night, I wanted to give myself a 'treat' so I have vegan chicken fingers, maki roll and soy ice cream... and I felt awful after. So, this week no treats quite like that. Maybe I'll try making something out of the Macro book.

Also, good news! I found my copy of Zen macrobiotic cooking.

Food: Weekly Meal Plan - Mostly Macrobiotic

2011-02-20T04:23:00.002+11:00

Using the "Everything Guide to Macrobiotics" I put together this meal plan for the winter season. I'm branching out in terms of diet to try and kick this funk I have been in.
I have heard many good things about Macrobiotic eating and thought I'd give it a go. The other plus is that the foods are seasonal, so I can go local organic fairly cheap.

Breakfast
Apple-scented Oat and Buckwheat Porridge with Butternut Squash

Snack
Mini-banana

Lunch
Rice and Edamame with Orange Zest
Kale with Carrots and Tahini Sauce
Apple

Snack
Sweet Potato Sticks

Dinner
Tempeh with Gravy and Sauteed Jerusalem Artichokes

Jukai Ceremony - My Vows

2011-02-03T03:51:00.004+11:00

Some folks were curious about what the Jukai Ceremony that I took place in this weekend meant. It is a formal ceremony in which Boundless Way students share their commitment to the precepts in community. “Taking the precepts” (jukai) with a teacher who has received Dharma transmission from his or her teacher is a way to publicly acknowledge commitment to this way that is beyond words and forms. We vow together to embrace the actual circumstances of our lives, and to enter fully into whatever we encounter.

The precepts were originally designed as guidelines for living a life that supports and deepens practice in everyday life. They can also function as an endless source of contemplation and help us to continually awaken to the universal nature of reality that we call Buddha Nature.

Underlined are the formal vows. Beneath each vow is my own response that I wrote for the ceremony.

I take refuge in the Three Treasures

I take refuge - not as protection or shelter, but to commit myself to this path without reservation; to rely upon my faith, as a person would a raft. These truths sustain me as I encounter the currents of Samsara.

Taking Refuge in the Buddha

“I take refuge in the realization that everyone is a Buddha. Each of us is capable of experiencing full awakening just as we are. We are each perfect though this nature is hidden from us by the veil of our own illusions.”

Taking Refuge in the Dharma

“I take refuge in the truth of Buddha’s realizations. I will practice the path of the dharma without preference, recognizing the impermanent and interdependent nature of all life that is manifest in each moment. I strive to embody these teachings daily and serve as a vessel for the dharma legacy.”

Taking Refuge in the Sangha

“I take refuge in the unity of all living beings, those who share the path of dharma and those who do not. I seek to nurture harmony in my own life and in those lives I encounter. I rely upon my spiritual community, my dharma family - coming together to practice with dedication.”

First Pure Precept: Not Creating Evil

“I will refrain from causing suffering by not acting out of greed, anger and ignorance”

Second Pure Precept: Practicing Good

“I will affirm life and manifest truth through the discernment and practice of skillful action”

Third Pure Precept: Actualizing Good for Others

“Recognizing the unity of existence, I will endeavor for the welfare of all beings. May my compassion for others guide my actions.”

First Grave Precept: Not Killing

“I vow to affirm life with my thoughts and actions. I will embrace a reverence for all things, even as I must consume life to sustain my own.”

Second Grave Precept: Not Stealing

“To possess something is to believe it is permanent and solid. To obtain something is to see oneself as separate from it. Realizing the impermanent nature of the universe, I will strive to not grasp thoughts or forms, letting each moment serve as an opportunity to let go.”

Third Grave Precept: Not Misusing Sex

“Sexuality, like the Buddha nature in all things is the essence of self-realization. As an act of love and trust, it embodies the unity of existence. In the effort to cultivate compassion, I will not use sexuality to manipulate or harm others.”

Fourth Grave Precept: Not Lying

“I commit to manifest truth in my speech. I will refrain from speaking falsehoods by remaining aware of my interactions. May my efforts to speak without self-serving intent, allow me to practice ethical speech and foster honesty with others.”

Fifth Grave Precept: Not Giving or Taking Intoxicants

“Embracing the truth in every moment, I will refrain from intoxicating attachments - substances, actions or thoughts that delude the mind and cloud full awareness.”

Sixth Grave Precept: Not Discussing the Faults of Others

“I will refrain from speaking of other’s faults, vowing to communicate in a way that is beneficial, truthful, aware, and deliberate. I will seek to see the Buddha nature of all beings”

Seventh Grave Precept: Not Elevating Oneself While Blaming Others

“Addressing my own insecurities, I will take responsibility for my thoughts and actions and seek the truth without blame.

Eighth Grave Precept: Not Sparing the Dharma Assets

“The dharma is both abundant and formless. I will deny the illusion of separateness and give generously of myself.”

Ninth Grave Precept: Not Indulging in Anger

“To escape the cycle of suffering, I will seek to actualize harmony in myself and others. Seeing anger for what it is, discord brought about by expectation, I will practice embracing the present moment without desire.”

Tenth Grave Precept: Not Defaming the Three Treasures

“I vow to keep the Three treasures – the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha clear in my mind and present in my life daily. My practice will be to recognize that no action is ordinary, but each moment contains the opportunity to manifest the Buddha way and serve all living beings.”

Food: Recipe - Apple-scented Oatmeal and Buckwheat Porridge

2011-02-02T10:47:00.001+11:00

[Modified From Whole Foods]

Serves 4-6

Ingredients

1 cup steel-cut oats
1/2 cup buckwheat groats
2 cups pure apple juice
2 cups water
1 cinnamon stick

Method

Put oats and groats into a medium pot and cook over medium heat, stirring often, until toasted and fragrant, 5 to 7 minutes. Meanwhile, put juice, water and cinnamon into a small pot and heat over medium heat until hot.

Carefully add hot juice mixture to oats and groats and return to the heat. Bring to a boil, reduce heat to medium low and simmer, stirring occasionally, until liquid is absorbed and oats and groats are tender, about 10 minutes. Remove and discard cinnamon, ladle into bowls and serve.

Nutrition

Per serving (about 10oz/283g-wt.): 210 calories (15 from fat), 2g total fat, 0g saturated fat, 0mg cholesterol, 10mg sodium, 43g total carbohydrate (4g dietary fiber, 15g sugar), 6g protein

Food: Recipe - Best Vegan Omelet Ever!

2011-01-09T10:52:00.001+11:00

At least in my opinion that is. Sick of tofu scrambles, I decided to take the leap and try concocting a vegan omelet. And eventually, after much slaving away, Eureka!

I hope you enjoy this recipe as much as I do. Let me know what you think!

Makes: 16 small omelets

Preparation Time: 30 mins

Ingredients:

16 oz of firm tofu, mashed

1.5 c of chickpea flour

.5 c onion, chopped

2 T soy sauce

1-2 T tahini

2 T baking powder

1 c water

Pepper to taste

Any minced add-ins (parsley, peppers, chives, etc...)

Let’s Get Started:

First, stir the flour and tofu together. Then, add this mixture the remaining ingredients (minus your add-ins and). Blend until mostly smooth. Add more water if needed. What you are aiming for is like a slightly thick pancake batter.

Pour small circles on to a medium-hot non-stick griddle or pan. Add the add-ins on top. Let them cook undisturbed until the edges brown and the centers are somewhat firm. Then, delicately flip. This is why you don't want to make them too big, lest they crumble. Cook until the bottoms are browned also. Ta Da! You have yummy-ness.

Featured in Pulse Magazine's 2011 "People to Watch"

2011-01-05T08:48:00.005+11:00

Generally, I like it.

There were a few discrepancies - the major one being I'm aiming for Family Mental Health Nurse Practitioner, not to become a psychologist. Its NSNA/MASNA not MSNA. And I don't know if I would describe myself as a relief worker..

The Article

01.11 People to Watch in 2011
(http://www.thepulsemag.com/wordpress/2011/01/111-people-to-watch-in-2011)

By Tine Roycroft, Rachel Bryson-Brockmann, and Jennifer Russo

It’s that time of year again ~ resolutions, fresh starts, and Pulse’s “People to Watch” issue. This year, we’re featuring 11 exemplary local individuals who are making a name for themselves and for Worcester County itself ~ they are students, artists, entrepreneurs, musicians, visionaries and more, all working towards making our community a stronger, more united, more vibrant one. Choosing these individuals was not an easy task, as we received so many nominations for outstanding people doing outstanding things. But please join us now in congratulating “The Eleven” we did choose for their contributions thus far and in looking forward to what this exceptional group is sure to accomplish in the future. What better way to start off the new year?

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Rhiannon Doherty

29, Relief Worker, Worcester

It took going across the world to find her true purpose in life.

After a stint in the Peace Corps, stationed in Ba, Fiji, Rhiannon Doherty realized she wanted to help take care of people.

“People kept coming up to me and asking, ‘What’s wrong with me?’”

She wanted to know the answers, and she wanted to help.

Doherty, 29, came home to Worcester and enrolled in the nursing program at Massachusetts College of Pharmacy and Health Science.

Though she had experimented in a number of different careers ~ including acting, modeling, and teaching theatre ~ she felt strongly that she needed to reach out to those in need.

“I needed to do more to make a difference, to do something concrete,” she said.

Now, she’s the community outreach chair for the Massachusetts Student Nurses Association, where she encourages individual chapters of the MSNA to be more active in their communities through health fairs, screenings, fundraisers, awareness campaigns, and the like.

She’s also a member of the Red Cross’s disaster action team. Trained in relief work, she responds to local disasters, helping to provide food and shelter. “We are the first to the scene of a disaster to provide immediate relief assistance,” she explained. “This could be a small house fire in the middle of the night or assisting with a shelter for many during a local ice storm.” Her personal interest is mental health medical care in shelter situations, as one day she hopes to become a psychologist.

Doherty also has plans to continue doing relief work, either nationally or internationally.

Doherty stresses it doesn’t take a lot to make someone feel a little better. “With a sense of humor, you can make patients smile and feel normal again,” she said. “It’s important to act with compassion and think of the whole person.”

Food: Eat with Intent - Soy Milk

2010-12-28T04:28:00.001+11:00

After doing a bit of research about the 'net, I found one site to be invaluable for locating a non-GMO, organic, worker-friendly source for soy products: Cornucopia Institute.

This site said that of all the brands one might choose from for soy milk, the best was Eden Foods.

From Cornucopia Institute:

Eden® Foods readily shared contact information for the farmers who grow organic soybeans for their EdenSoy (soymilk) products. Based on our follow up research, we have no reason to question their claim that all soybeans used in their EdenSoy products come from American farmers with whom they have long-term and stable relationships. The farmers whom we contacted are dedicated to organic principles, and very much appreciate Eden Foods’ commitment to supporting their diverse organic farms.

Eden® Foods does carry four products that do not contain USA-grown soybeans; these are traditional Japanese specialty products, imported from Japan. The four products containing non-USA grown soybeans are their Natto Miso, freeze-dried tofu, Tekka sauce and Ponzu sauce. We appreciate Eden® Foods’ honesty in sharing with us that these four products contain soybeans that are not USA-grown.

Eden® Foods rates very highly because, in addition to sourcing only USA-grown soybeans for their soymilk, they test every incoming load of soybeans for GEO (genetically engineered organisms) contamination and use only pure food ingredients for flavoring (using real vanilla extract instead of natural flavors).

Note: consumers may wonder why Eden® Foods products do not carry the green “USDA Organic” seal. Eden® Foods’ explains: “Though all EDEN organic food is grown, handled, processed, and certified in a way that meets and exceeds the requirements for using the 'USDA Organic' seal, Eden chooses not to use this seal on its food labels. In short this seal does not approach Eden's standards for organic, in practice or in spirit.”

Eden® writes:

“We are an independent natural food company offering authentic organic family farm food since 1968. Dedicated farmers nurture more than 75,000 acres. Each food is prepared as if for our children, with no irradiation, no preservatives, no chemical additives, no food colorings, no refined sugars, and no genetically engineered ingredients - just the best that can be found.

EDENSOY is 100 percent USA family farm organic soybeans and grain. We visit each farm, the fields, and families regularly. Ingenious tending over decades provides vital soil producing food that brims with energy, flavor, and vastly superior nutrition.

Soy protein requires thorough cooking to transform it into easy to assimilate food. EDENSOY is made at our certified organic plant employing 240 continuous quality control checks and decades of research how best to choose and prepare soybeans. From double reverse osmosis purified water, to a patented enzyme invalidator, to Swedish aseptic packaging, every step contributes to greater value.

Food: New Mission - Eat With Intent

2010-12-28T04:26:00.002+11:00

After watching Food Inc. and doing a bit of research, I have decided to make more informed and deliberate choices about what I consume and how I participate in food economics.

To this end, I have decided to choose one food that I eat on a regular basis and try to determine the most responsible and ethical source for the product each week.

Keep an eye out, all findings will be blogged. And as always, I would love to hear anything you have to say on the matter.

Food: Must See Film!

2010-12-28T04:26:00.001+11:00

I encourage everyone to take a few moments out of their life to view this important documentary that traces the origins of the foods we eat everyday and the impact of their production on our bodies, our communities and our environment.

This film was a very moving experience for me. It was painful to watch animals suffer needlessly, to witness individual workers abused and to hear of farmers being degraded. It was a very valuable experience that has motivated me to take a more active part in my food choices, beyond my veganism.

My plan is to try and research a single food in my diet each week to uncover a responsible and ethical source.

Road Trip 2010: Pittsburgh, PA - Day 2

2010-08-22T02:46:00.016+11:00

Pittsburgh, PA

Our second day was more laid back than the first. I was up earlier than other folks so I putted about the house, meditated and did some reading. Once Sean was up, we went to Starbucks so I could grab some coffee.

Once our day was started properly, we headed out for lunch at a well-known vegetarian/vegan hot spot called The Quiet Storm (5430 Penn Avenue, Pittsburgh).The place has the feel of a 1950’s dinner with all the vegan milkshakes an animal lover could want (I had the
pumpk
in pie one). They offer a wide variety of diner-like items, including their famous homefries.

The neighborhood around Quiet Storm was interesting. The backbone of the area was a bit rundown with neglected old Victorians, but there bright strea
ks of an upcoming eco-minded artsy community showing through. Every so often you’d spot a very modern looking building housing some arts or environmental initiative group.
It really was something to see. Also, there we saw the
Kubideh Kitchen, which is a take-out restaurant that only serves cuisine from countries that the United States is in conflict with, created by Conflict kitchen.

Then we needed to satisfy our sweet-teeth and off to Oh Yeah! Ice Cream Parlor (232 South Highland Avenue, Pittsburgh) we went. This place is astounding. Something like a vegan-friendly Coldstone on steroids. 100+ mix ins! Seriously. Everything from M&Ms to hops and hot peppers. And they always have vegan waffles.

Only a few moments of respite before we left to visit a good friend of Sean’s, Poroma. A short drive and we were there and the two of them caught up on old times. We hit up a nearby bar, The Fox and the Hound (Ste 2002, 8000 McKnight Road, Pittsburgh), for a few drinks. They weren’t very strong so we did have to make up for that in quantity. The waitress, however, was amazing. But, that may have had something to do with us flirting. Maybe. Then, b
ack to Poroma’s to chat some more and then home again to bed.

Road Trip 2010: Pittsburgh, PA - Day 1

2010-08-20T04:39:00.015+11:00

Hoboken, NJ to Pittsburgh, PA

Our stay in Pittsburgh with friends, Tom and Jen, lasted a few days. This allowed us to do a few more touristy things and eat more (always very important).

On our first day, we slept through breakfast, having arrived on our kind hosts' doorstep at 2 am. After we all were up and about, we decided to grab lunch at a place called The Juice Box. (735 Copeland St. Pittsburgh). Its a small place with smoothies, juices and wraps. Rumor is they do vegan waffles on Tuesdays and Sundays. I had a smoked tofu curry wrap that was quite good with a really lovely fresh fruit cup. The smoothies folks got were delicious also.

Then to our next destination: The Andy Warhol Museum.

This museum was a unique experience. Of the 12,000 works contained in the museum, I would venture to guess that over 40% had something to do with copulating or eliminating. No joke. I should say that I am not the biggest fan of popart. I have very

specific types of modern art that I favor. But he’s an artist of note and it was worth the price of admission.

I was mostly familiar with his more famous work; portraits, and reproductions of soup cans, so a lot of the fetured art took me by surprise. One exhibit called Silver Clouds, featured helium-filled balloons that moved with the aircurrents and you could play with them. It brought out some of the tongue in cheek humor, I thought. I learned a great deal in my short tour. Things I didn’t know: Andy Warhol was gay, had his own TV show, directed films and was shot (with one bullet through something like 5 organs) but survived.

After that intense exposure, we all needed something inherently soothing... cupcakes. We walked a bit to the Dozen Bakeshop (807 Liberty Ave), which offers a weekly calendar of cupcakes on special that features a different vegan cupcake everyday. I had a tasty vanilla cupcake with a buttercream lemon frosting. Brilliant.

Before heading back to our temporary home, we drove to The Duquesne Incline, a working museum that has provided rapid public transportation since 1877. It had beautiful views of the city and all of its fantastic bridges.

For dinner we decided to stay close to the house and grabbed some Thai from a familiar haunt of Jen and Tom's. Thai Cuisine (4625 Liberty Ave. Bloomsfield), did not disappoint. Although I ordered simple faire, fresh rolls and tofu satay with peanut sauce, it was really well prepared and our server was great!

Road Trip 2010: Hoboken, NJ

2010-08-20T03:00:00.010+11:00

Providence, RI to Hoboken, NJ

Off and running (if a bit behind) Sean and I made it down to NJ with only one small near-death driving experience in NYC. We survived and made it to Amber Lea's place, where we caught up on the missed years and then promptly crashed.

The next day we decided to spend a bit more time in the area so we could go into NYC and grab some food. This pleased me greatly, as New York City has a large variety of vegan foodstuffs (check out: SuperVegan Guide to NYC)

We took the PATH in and then rode the Metro to get around. First stop: Lunch.

We had lunch at a 'SNICE (45 8th Ave. New York). I got a fantastic "chicken" caesar salad wrap. Sean grabbed a Tempeh Ruben.

We stopped at Caracas (93 East 7th Street, New York) to try the arepas that Amber Lea raved about. I got an arepa with plantains, baked tofu and avocado. Fantastic. I would love to try my hand at making one of these at home.

Next up: Ice Cream. Our destination was Lula's Sweet Apothecary (516 East 6th Street. New York), a entirely vegan ice cream shoppe. I ordered a 'Drumstick' flavored ice cream that used a non-soy cashew/coconut base. It had cone, chocolate and peanut chunks and brought me straight back to childhood. Sean got a blackberry softserve with butterscotch ice cream and Amber Lea grabbed a chocolate and peanut butter malt. All were pleased with their choices.

Most of our day was spent wandering the streets of West and East villages with Amber Lea. Goofy photos were taken and amazing vegan food consumed.

A great start to the road trip.

Road Trip 2010: The Plan

2010-08-20T00:19:00.008+11:00

For my four week break from the insanity of nursing school, I decided to accompany my friend, Sean on a road trip out West. The original plan was to go all the way to Stanford and then fly home. But then my brilliant friend Renee had the idea to throw in some hiking too. So now, Sean and I are driving to Denver and then I am meeting up with Renee to crew at the 3-Day Walk for the Cure and then hike through the Grand Canyon.

The Itinerary

Aug 16: Providence, RI to Hoboken, NJ

Aug 17: Hoboken, NJ to Pittsburg, PA

Aug 18 - 19: Tour Pittsburg, PA

Aug 20: Pittsburg, PA to Chicago, IL

Aug 21: Tour Chicago, IL

Aug 22: Chicago, IL to Somewhere in Nebraska

Aug 23: Nebraska to Denver, CO

Aug 24 - 25: Denver, CO

Aug 26 - Aug 29: Denver 3-Day

Aug 30: Drive to the Grand Canyon

Aug 31 - Sept 3: Hike the Grand Canyon

Sept 4: Return Home

The Method

We are trying to keep driving down to under 8 hours a day. This is supposed to be an enjoyable trip after all. To do this we have many friends to thank, who have generously opened their homes to us for a night or two.

I went ahead a planned out all the food details of a vegan road trip/ camping beforehand. I used several websites for guidance (all of which I'll list as I write). I packed a number of dry goods and fruits. Healthy options for snacking in the car. The plan is to hit up health food and grocery stores as we go.

Baggage was as minimal as possible due to Sean needing car space for all his belongings. I ended up with a small backpack for everyday stuff (laptop, wallet, etc.), a small duffle for all of my clothes and toiletries, a hiking backpack with all of my gear stashed inside, and my camera.

With our rental packed to the gills and goodbyes said, we were off!

First stop... Hoboken, NJ.

Update: Lots of Firsts

2010-07-10T01:31:00.001+11:00

This past week was full of firsts. Many new challenges to work with.

School

A big week. Started my first clinical rotation this week at a rehab facility. Started in right away the day after my orientation with my own patient. He’s an interesting case who has had quite the hospitalization journey. From one possibly fatal circulation issue to another nearly fatal heart complication and the patient was then broad-sided by a close call with a severe GI issue. Finally, patient got an infection on top of it. Yeah. They have had quite the journey. But you wouldn’t know it by anything but the incisions… all they complain about is a chronic pain from a congenital defect. Really pretty amazing.

I gave my first meds, did my first documented health assessment, took vitals, assisted with a dressing change. All in all pretty neat. That said, I had my fair share of anxiety and feeling overwhelmed too. I feel as though I’m constantly playing catch up. I never seem to know quite enough… this is to be expected I know. My amazing clinical instructor said as much. She put things in perspective when I was stressing that fact that I didn’t take a particular assessment after an incident. She reassured me saying that my only job in the circumstance was to notify the nurse that something had changed. I did extra… but still in the circumstances I wanted to do everything I could for my patient.

I am hitting a few personal brick walls. They’ve been there all along but now that I am in a service industry they are coming to the fore. I am self-oriented even as I am interested in the welfare of others. I don’t directly empathize with a person… instead I have to filter their sensations through a projection of my own experiences. This creates a delay in my reaction. It is something I’m working on. Also, I don’t multi-task well. I hyper-focus on what I am doing and its already an issue. I’m supposed to always be doing at least two things at once: Asking about comfort level while assessing skin turgor and affect, etc… I need to figure out a way to make this happen. Hopefully, it will come with practice.

Health & Wellness

I’m adjusting to my new schedule. The heat this week had made things difficult. My clinical is first shift (6.3a-2.3p) and so I’m up and out early. Trouble is I’m a night person. I study best at night, especially when its so hot in the afternoon. So I’m averaging 4-6 hours a night, which really isn’t enough. Hoping to recover this weekend…

Employment & Finance

Still waiting on the nursing assistant position. Issue is everyone seems to be on vacation.

Volunteering

MaSNA: Working on getting some volunteer opportunities together for student nurses. Looking into walks and clinics. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know.

Hospice: Started with my first hospice patient this week. She is a lovely woman with a love of birds and chocolate. I had to keep the speed and complexity of conversation in check. That will take some work. I’m going to look for a bird picture book for next week. I’m not sure yet how she feels about her prognosis. Right now, I just try and make her day a little more pleasant. The experience is a nice counterpoint to my clinical patient care where I have little time to spend with my patients.

Red Cross: I still haven’t been out on a call but I’m sure it will happen sometime soon. I’m looking into taking a class on shelter logistics soon.

Personal Practice

Haven’t had too much of a chance to sit on Sundays due to other scheduled commitments. But I’m hoping to work that in over the next few weekends. There is a work weekend I’d like to help out with. I think my practice will really be key to helping me keep my head on my shoulders. I just need to follow through with it.

Also, I am reading a book by John Daido Loori, called “The Heart of Being.” It is a book about Zen ethics. Really a very interesting read.

Social Life

Been gaming lately. Loving the campaign we have going on. Really a very fun character and world.

Went to see The Last Airbender. It was…ok. Loved the scenery, costumes and fights. The rest was not really that great. I did not like what they did with Inro. And why the name pronunciation changes? I hope they do a second but get a different director. And can someone please tell me why they keep hiring Shayamalan?

Namaste all.

Update: Just Breathing

2010-06-19T03:16:00.000+11:00

I have a day to come up for air before diving into school full force on Monday.

School

Just finished my final for health assessment… and I got an A. This makes me quite happy. What doesn’t make me happy is the fact that Provider I starts Monday and within the first week have two tests on 6 chapters. I’m going to try and get out to a friend’s party tomorrow, but that will depend on how much reading I can get done between now and then.

Health & Wellness

I’ve been working out when I can. Usually at least 3 days a week. Trying to change my composition to include more lean muscle mass. A work in progress for sure.

I have been attending PT for my back and its seems to be doing alright. My latest therapist is wonderful and gives me really challenging exercises.

Employment & Finance

Just put in my application for a nursing assistant job yesterday. Looks promising.

I have yet to respond to call for the disaster action team (DAR), but I was able to attend some of the large-scale drill last weekend. I also spoke with the leader of the health team about getting involved. We had a meeting and she showed me the ropes. Good stuff.

I’ll be attending my orientation for hospice care at the end of the month. I’m looking forward to the opportunity.

I am now officially the outreach chair for Ma student nurses association. Try to come up with some ideas for volunteer work in the future. Also, I was put in charge of poking around the website.

Personal Practice

Although, I have not had the ability to sit every week with the group, I feel as though it’s a good fit. I’ve decided to take the precepts within the year. It is a lot of responsibility but I feel as though I am finally ready to make a serious commitment to serving others.

Social Life

Been gaming on Wednesdays for the most part. Every so often I get down to Providence. Not sure I will be able to maintain this during Provider I. I really hope I can.

Namaste all.

Still Alive and Happy About It

2010-05-22T06:03:00.002+11:00

It has been forever since my last update... I know. And for those of you who care, I apologize. But I'm here now, right?

Life is good. A lot of new developments and issue resolutions. A few not so good spots where I hit a bit of a slump. Details below.

School

I survived the semester. Passed all my finals with decent grades and managed to get on the Dean's list. Hopefully I can keep it up. This semester I learned that papers are my GPA's friends. I also learned that you cannot really study for the HESI test that is 25% of your grade. This proved endlessly frustrating but I'm hoping to improve my test taking abilities to be able t prove my knowledge/understanding on these tests.

Pharmacology/Pathology: A great but challenging class. The professor was fair, had a good sense of humor and was really looking out for our best interests. But as I mentioned before, this was no walk in the park... so much to memorize in such a short span of time. But I did... though I'll have to go back and brush on some things before clinical I think.

Nursing Skills: Good class. Lab was frustrating at times. There was a lack of supervision, so I might be practicing a skill that would never been seen by an instructor until I was taking my practicum. Oh and I passed both my med and skills practicums, obviously or they wouldn't let me continue in the program.

Nursing History: My strongest class. Good stuff. It'll be fascinating to see how the theory fits into real world practice.

Nursing Essentials: Didn't get on with this class at all really. Very vague topics and material but very specific questions on exams. Example: You see a patient crying after learning she has a fatal disease, you ...? a) give her time alone b) sit by her side silently holding her hand c) tell her that everything will be alright. Vague right? Depends on the context your relationship with the person, etc... But they want a cookie cutter answer and apparently I read into the questions. *sigh* By the time the final came around I was a bit better at spotting what they wanted but still.. not useful.

Health & Wellness

So, my back surgery was a huge success. I had only one bad muscle spasm after and that resolved within days. Other than that its like night and day. I am back to my old self. I've even gone back to the gym. I've missed working out so much. I'm currently doing some PT to try and get this huge knot in my back to release and let my hips stay where they ought to. Its not a big deal and it doesn't typically impact me on a daily basis.

Diet. Yeah... so the last post about venturing into raw again. That lasted a bit, but I just can't keep up with my protein needs. That raw journey was brought on by a really nasty bout of overeating due to the stress of finals. Food is my coping mechanism when I can't exercise (and sometimes when I can). This is pretty common with most folks... but my brain takes it to the next level sometimes, where I'll eat to the point where I'm "Thanksgiving-full" and then start to feel ill and I'll keep eating till I am... driven by guilt or some other unhealthy thought process. I'm aware of how negative this behavior is and typically, it doesn't happen but once it does it takes me months to recover from that compulsive need to harm myself with food. Old habits die hard.

This is all the more reason to have a good system in place. I took my vacation after finals before the term started on May 17th to do just that. I went to a mostly raw diet and juiced for a few days. I tried to get my body craving healthful natural foods and less processed sugars. And it worked, when I want something sweet now, I'm often happier with an apple than something like an Oreo. But all this will require maintenance and patience.

Employment & Finance

Working on getting a per diem, 1 shift on the weekend CNA/Nursing Assistant job in an ICU/ER/Med-Surg Floor. No luck so far due to a hiring freeze at UMass. But I'll keep trying.

I am now an official Disaster Action Team response volunteer for Red Cross of Central MA. I'm trained to respond to local (and eventually national) disasters to assist to aid, disaster assessment, paperwork, and psychological first aid. At my chapter, we average 3 calls a week for house fires. Then of course events like flooding and ice storms. I'm really privileged to be able to help others in this way and I'm looking forward to the opportunity.

Working as a hospice volunteer locally is in the works. I have some paperwork to do yet, but I should be volunteering an afternoon a week. I think it is really crucial to experience all aspects of life fully and this includes dying. It is an important part of my work and I feel strongly that everyone should have the all the resources and support they need to have every opportunity for a meaningful death.

Finally, I was elected as the community outreach chair for the MA Student Nurse Association. This position will allows me to develop and organize community outreach programs wit the student nurse all around MA. I'm really hoping to do some big stuff with this. If anyone has any ideas about community work/volunteering opportunities for groups, let me know!

Personal Practice

Jackpot! I found a Zen sitting group in Worcester... literally less than 2 miles from my house. They have session every Sunday evening and through out the week. The members are diverse in age and very active. My first sitting was last Sunday but I am greatly looking forward to my future with the group.

Social Life

I've done pretty well for myself in this regard. A few parties, a hike on Mt. Wachusett and amazing trip over break to Northampton. I haven't been able to see everyone I would I love to see, but that comes with the territory. The summer semesters seem a little more open and I may have some more time on the weekends to visit folks.

Bits & Bobs

Nothing I can think of.

Namaste all.

Raw Journey: Getting Back on Track

2010-05-22T06:01:00.002+11:00

So stress wreaks havoc on life... I know this. I am living this. However, I have let my foundations become unhinged by my stressors (school, finance, school, fitness, school). Though following through with my raw plan for several weeks, I gained weight, not much but some. This was mostly due to my reaction to stress. I binge and in this case that meant lots of Larabars, nuts and nut butters. Anything remotely decadent. Leave it to me to find a way.

Anyway, I need to get back to a more structured way of eating (and living). It really does give me a sense of order and peace; knowing that I am nourishing my body without having to think about it each meal. So, back to the drawing board to create a weekly meal plan.

This week, I give you a meal plan that includes room for adaptation.

It is raw-ish, vegan, and low calorie, a total of 1000 Kcal to be precise. This gives me some degree of room to play... add popcorn, extra fruit, extra snacky thing...

WEEK 1

Morning Snack: Banana Milk using soymilk. (100 cal)

Breakfast: Raw oatmeal with cinnamon, almonds, raisins and apples. (270 cal)

Lunch: BLT salad with homemade sprouted croutons (170 cal)

Afternoon Snack: Carrot rounds and hummus (85 cal)

Dinner: Thai Vegetable Stew [The Everyday Vegan] (200 cal)

Sweet Snack: Some fruit. (75 cal)

TOTAL: 1000 calories.

Mindful Living

2010-05-22T06:01:00.001+11:00

Thich Naht Hanh had a really nice way of putting mindfulness...

Suffering is like an baby crying in a room. This could be your anger or your pain. Mindfulness is the mother who comes to sooth the baby. She does so tenderly and calmly. She also is curious about the origin of the suffering, or why the baby is crying. But she isn't upset about the baby being upset, she doesn't beat herself up that the she let the baby cry. She just cares for it.

The meditation to accompany this is:

Breathing in, I see myself as a 5 year old child.
Breathing out, I smile to my 5 year old child.

This emphasizes the feelings of vulnerability and dependency of a young child. These same feelings that are the root of our own pain/shame/anger. This mantra encourages you to show compassion for yourself.

Once you have determined the cause of your suffering, ex: your co-worker makes you very angry, you should do the same and imagine your co-worker as a young child.

Breathing in, I see my co-worker as a 5 year old child.
Breathing out, I smile to the 5 year old child.

This allows us to connect with the root human-ness of all beings. We all suffer the same way. We are all vulnerable and desiring happiness.

We are all worthy of compassion.

Eating: Going Raw-ish. (Day 1)

2010-03-23T07:27:00.002+11:00

So previously, I attempted a raw vegan detox. It went fairly well, aside from the fact that juice is a good way to go broke. With the onset of spring and some fairly poor eating choices lately, I have decided that going 1/2 raw is absolutely achievable.

To kick it off, I give you my recipe for yummy thai lettuce wraps.

The most important part is the sauce. Mine is fairly straight forward.

- 6 T natural raw peanut butter

- Juice of 1 lemon or 2 limes

- 2 T soy sauce

- 1 T raw agave nectar

- 2 cloves garlic, minced

- 1.5" grated ginger

Put in food processor and blend.

For the rolls themselves,

Use a nice piece of lettuce as your wrap, and fill it full of goodness.

In this case, I tossed shredded green cabbage and my sauce, layers sliced mango and grated carrots, avocado, and finally some fresh basil and cilantro.

Surgery Update: Day 6 & 7

2010-03-16T10:27:00.002+11:00

Nothing of note really to say. Still doing fine, still have a bit of a spasm in my lumbar. But, all in all, I'm doing pretty well. Able to start classes tomorrow with no issue. So here concludes my surgical update. If anything of note happens, I'll put it in a regular update. You may now return to your regular scheduled programming.

Surgery Update: Day 5

2010-03-14T00:36:00.002+11:00

I am a normal human being... well, almost.

I had a good night's sleep, got out of bed without a hitch. Even pulled my own socks on without having to negotiate the angle by which I did so. Took Motrin to make sure I stayed so limber and was off to run errands. I went along all day with virtually no pain. The exceptions being: shifting in a seat and a minor muscle spasm still lingering in my lower right lumbar. I even walked around a mall for an hour without my feet going numb once... no crippling pain. What will I do with myself?

Oh, and as promised, below this link is a picture of my incision today. (Day 6)

Click here.

Each one of those ticks is about an inch tall. This makes my incision under an inch. I guess that is why they call it microdiscectomy now...

Surgery Update: Day 4

2010-03-12T14:17:00.002+11:00

Slept through Wednesday night without waking once, and stayed in bed till 10:30. (I didn't get to bed until 1 the night before) I got out of bed without thinking to much about the action and went to go brush my teeth, when it occurred to me that I didn't feel any pain and had no hesitation or problems maneuvering. This of course put me in a very cheerful mood.

Most of GI upset from the previous evening had gone, though I still am a bit concerned about retaining fluids. If it continues much longer, I'm going to call the doctor. That said, I felt great. I walked down the stairs to make breakfast with no issue at all, no real pain but the slight irritation (1) of my waistband rubbing my wound dressing. Went to meet fellow students at school to discuss a project and felt like a normal human being again, driving... taking the stairs.. carrying books. All good things. And even better, I did it all with nothing but 500mg of Motrin in my system.

The rest of the day was uneventful. In the late afternoon, I developed a bit of a muscle spasm in the area of my lower back where I had been most irritated from my ruptured disc. This was no real surprise to me. So to try and cut-off any progressive muscle retaliation, I'm going to stick to the Flexeril and Vicodin at night until I go back to school and have to get up earlier than I would like to in the morning.

I should be changing my dressing tomorrow and will hopefully be able to share some photos of my surgical site with any morbidly curious folks like myself.

Surgery Update: Day 3

2010-03-12T14:03:00.002+11:00

The night before I slept soundly and through the night, waking up at my usual hour, around 8. The previous evening, I took both Flexeril and Vicodin. I awoke again with a dry mouth which lasted most of the day, finally resolving in the afternoon. Still had a lingering headache and so I had some coffee and that took care of it. The rest of the day went smoothly. I had recovered leaps and bounds from the previous day. I was active and on my feet, walking slowly, a bit stiff, but still walking. I took a walk through the park about a half a mile total. and then spent almost 3 hours in the car. By then of the day I was a bit more sore, but my pain was tolerable and so I relied on Motrin alone for my pain/inflammation management. I was finally able to leave the house and see my friends.

Surgery Update: Day 2

2010-03-11T01:07:00.004+11:00

Day 2:

I slept fairly well through the night, walking up only a few times, but then falling back asleep quickly. And may I say, this dry mouth thing is nasty to wake up with... won't go into detail, so suffice to say my tongue feels like stiff laundry. Really hoping that disappears today.

I had a pounding headache yesterday, especially when I changed levels.. even slowly. I think it might be caffeine withdrawal. So I'm having coffee as I write.

The Vicodin made me into a shambling brainless zombie, but didn't seem to help that much, so I am only going to take it at night and stick to Flexeril (so I'm more mobile) and IBProfen for the inflammation/pain. All in all, this hurts but it isn't killing me. I feel the most pain when I put pressure on the incision (laying on my back, sitting against a chair), I feel some pain when walking because this cause the incision to move. I have some muscle tightness in low back and hips.

In terms of activity: I did some research for my paper yesterday when I was more with it, but wasn't with it enough to analyze anything. So, I'm going to pick up where I left off later. Mostly I slept all day with a few lucid moments.

I can't see the wound as its all wrapped up neatly.. but as soon as I get the chance I'll take a snapshot.

Update: I Survived

2010-03-10T01:06:00.001+11:00

School

Still working on getting the best study technique for each class, but I am more less alright with how I am doing in my program. I seem to do quite well on papers, so I am hoping those high grades will bring up some of the B’s.

Pharmacology/Pathology: Good class, great professor. Tough as Tupperware. I have never studied this hard in my life. But I love the material, as I have said before. I have a paper coming up on a disease of my choice, looks to be fun. Still not sure which one to do…

Nursing Skills: Read, read, read. Did ok on my last exam, but didn’t realize that so much of the material we covered in lab would be on the exam. I had thought, foolishly, that they might be separate entities.

Nursing History: Doing really well in this class and I’m really excited about my nursing issue paper coming up.

Nursing Essentials: Not the biggest fan of this class. The topics seem straightforward enough but then the exam was really subjective and vague. Still working out the best study method for this class.

Health & Wellness

I had back surgery yesterday. L4/L5 microdiscectomy to be precise. The process went smoothly: I was asleep within seconds of the drug entering my IV, then I was awake. When I awoke, it was if I had taken a nap, with no strong pain or nausea. Had a nice chit-chat with nurse while I recovered and then left, after I proved I could walk. I’m going to keep a more detailed log of my recovery process posted, as when I looking online I had trouble finding a clear picture of what that might look like. If you don’t like medical details or they bore you, I’d skip the next part.

Day 1 - Details: Walked around quite a bit yesterday, I’d say a few 20-30 minute stints. Had some muscle stiffness that was handled with Flexeril and slowly as the pain meds from the surgery wore off, some pain (4) from my incision. I took Vicodin 325 and that took the edge off the pain and I was left with a dull ache (2). The biggest issue yesterday was the complete dry mouth from the anti-nausea meds. Drink, drink, drink and I was still dry as a desert. Ice chips alleviated the issue somewhat. The other annoying side effect was urination. As in had trouble. I think this was difficult to accomplish because of the muscle relaxants preventing me from contracting my bladder. Not a 100% sure on that. Just a guess. Overall, I spend most of yesterday sitting at my computer or retrieving things from downstairs. I took a short 1 hour nap after my dose of Vicodin. Then later, I had a friend or two over to sit and talk or watch a movie. When watching the move I was most comfortable on my side in bed. Getting to sleep was not difficult, as I am normally a side sleeper, accustomed to using a pillow between my knees and hugging another to my chest. The most challenging part of all is going from standing to side-lying in bed, while trying not to twist too much. I slept through the night, only waking once in early morning to shift to my other side.

Employment & Finance

Loans came through, but I will have to budget to have the money last me till my next loan dispersement. I am not even going to consider a job until my back is feeling better.

Personal Practice

I found a Buddhist organization that sits on Sunday mornings in Brookline. It is really worth the drive for the peace of mind I have afterwards. I also like the idea of stopping in Somerville to get mocha/hot cocoa at the my favorite café/bookstore. Taking a bit of a time outside of my Worcester life to walk and read.

Social Life

Sadly, I did not get elected during class elections. But onward and upward, right?
I’ve been having some social time, meeting a friend for coffee, going to game night when I can. I’ve also had the pleasure of attending a few parties. Hoping I’ll be well enough to go to my friend’s 40th this weekend.

Bits & Bobs

I’ve been baking and sharing. Best way to bake in my opinion… all the yummy without the guilt of eating a pan of cupcakes all by your self. I get to make another delicious something for the party this weekend. I’m thinking a layered strawberry shortcake… cake.

Namaste all.

Update: Carrying On

2010-02-02T10:38:00.001+11:00

School

I finally think as though I am getting a feel for the way of things in this program. (Don’t hold me to that though…) The demands are pretty epic.. hours of reading a day, a lot of information to quickly retain all at once and mastering a variety of skills on a weekly basis. It is intense, and I have to add that this is the first time in my life I feel as though I really am being pushed to my academic limits.

I’ve survived the gauntlet of the first few tests in 2 of my classes. Did stellar in one class and average in the other. Received my first C+. Then went to console myself with a lovely cup of gingerbread hot cocoa. (I love Starbucks).

Pharmacology/Pathology: I still like it, though, I’m sure this will be my most difficult class. I’m aiming for a B+ in the class, ideally. But more importantly, I am aiming to memorize a veritable cornucopia of drugs.

Nursing Skills: I seem to be getting the gist of things in lab and then subjecting my poor friends to such things as getting their blood pressure taken. Such good sports. Did well on my first exam. A bright light.

Nursing History: Sometimes it is difficult to focus in this class… Friday morning with a laidback teacher does not equal attentiveness. Just saying.

Nursing Essentials: Dreading my first exam Thursday. I didn’t realize just how much we’ve covered in 3 weeks. Tons of theory from modes of caring to how health insurance works. Eek.

Health & Wellness

No real news here. I’ve been making an attempt at yoga. Slow going though.

Employment & Finance

Still poor. Jus applied for more loans. Not pretty, but I have few options… and I can’t seem to kick this eating habit of mine.

Personal Practice

Trying to be more deliberate and aware. I’m going to try an experiment this week and cut back on frivolous noise and thinking. Try to not get caught up in my emotions so much.

Social Life

Organized a class get together this past Thursday, which was a success. Despite the snow, 20 some-odd people made it out. We had a few drinks and actually got to know each other’s names. Good times.

Planning on participating in class elections… not sure what position(s) I want though.

Bits & Bobs

Trying to cook from scratch again… healthier and saves money.

Namaste all.

Update: Endless Reading

2010-01-24T12:50:00.001+11:00

School

School is most assuredly in full swing. We even had reading due the first day of school. I am not exaggerating when I say these folks do not mess around. If you come into lab missing your questions, you kicked right out. Arrive to class after the door has been shut, have to wait till the break 1 or 1.5 hours later. Not much margin for error. But I can respect that. The school’s culture is very determined and very professional.

The reading… oh my. I am responsible for several textbooks chapters, pages of NCLEX type questions and secondary reading materials for each class. My homework for each session on class takes as long if not longer than the class itself. I have no life and most likely will not, especially if I can find a job for Fri & Sat nights (most likely have to wait till after surgery, unless its sitting which would be ideal). So if you never see me online or hear from me, its because I’m buried in my books. If there is a get together you want me to attend, I might be able to make it happen given a week or twos notice.

As far as classes go,

Pharmacology/Pathology: Generally, I like it. Fascinating stuff, if a bit baffling at times. I’m hoping learning all these drugs will not be as difficult as it seems at first glance. I adore my teacher, great sense of humor and feel for the class temperament. Also, has a great way of breaking things down so they don’t seem so convoluted.

Nursing Skills: Interesting class. Really wish there was more hands-on practical lab work. We only meet once a week and we really have to race though skills. Which at the moment, isn’t too bad, seeing as I’m just learning how to put on sterile gloves, but if the trend continues when we get to medication administration, I’m going to be a bit concerned.

Nursing History: My ‘easy’ class it seems. Still a great deal of reading – a few chapters in a textbook plus 2-3 essays per class. But the topics are not the difficult so far.
Nursing Essentials: Just what it says. All the foundation know how a nurse needs to practice her profession. This includes everything from legal issues to morality to job climate. I think its a very useful class.

Health & Wellness

Got the news, surgery it is. Scheduled for the first day of spring break so I have time to recover. I’m not thrilled but every day my back worsens and I’m now at the point where I can barely walk for more than 10 minutes without numbness in my feet, that’s assuming I didn’t wake up with it there. I’m trying to use this as a lesson, what people go through when they are facing major surgery… it’s a little frightening I must admit. But part of that is due to my knowledge of nosocomial infections and medical error rates.

Employment & Finance

Don’t have any and what I do have is running out fast. I hate to do it, but I may have to live off my loans. But I’ll keep looking for a job. Its too bad there isn’t something I could do sitting from home.

Personal Practice

Again formal practice is postponed until movement can be recovered, but I need to find something for stress relief singing rock musicals and taking hot showers only so effective.

Artistic Endeavors

No club photography for me. Possible other photo gigs coming up.

Social Life

Hahahaha. I’m lucky I get hang with the guys at game once a week, and Sean for a day on the weekend. Every other waking hour is spent in my room. Not kidding.

Bits & Bobs

Kinda pissed. A textbook I sold was stolen enroute, now I am trying to resolve that.

Working on sorting out health insurance and looking for advice on state provided vs. the school provided private option. Really would like to stay on my current plan, but I am not sure that that is possible.

Tired now. Go watch movie online.

Namaste all

Coming to Terms with a B ... or my new Student Manifesto

2010-01-19T01:07:00.000+11:00

I don’t like what I am up against. This sinking feeling that there is no way I can possibly absorb this much information, much lest digest it. I never would have thought I could feel like I was suffocating on a textbook.

The problem is I’ve always been a good student. Desired to be ‘the’ good student. Academic achievement is such a clear-cut sense of security and stability. To have an ‘A’ means something exact and undeniable. It is an absolute definition of your ability and accomplishments as a human being, or so my mind says.

It is simple to wear an A like a uniform. To let it become your identity. No one questions the intelligence of an A-student day-to-day. You have groomed yourself to be trusted and admired, more importantly accepted by your society. Meanwhile, what is driving you towards that shell of stability? What messy, uncomfortable and painful feelings are at work in the background undermining even the most simple decisions?

We all feel that fear of ourselves and what we are not.

We are not solid and immutable. We are not made whole by accomplishment or other external factors. We are all blindly finding our way towards contentment and it hurts. To be alright with being mediocre is one of the mostly difficult challenges we face. This is not to say, “give up.” The opposite really – to embrace our failings is to be completely honest with ourselves, to directly confront the easy story we live behind. Accepting ourselves for who we are is the most challenging work we will ever do. And though we may not ever have any outward proof that we are ‘living honestly,’ it is still more valuable an accomplishment than any other.

So I may not get an A in every class. Or any. But I would be doing myself a greater disservice if I was to walk away from such a situation never asking why - not why I did not achieve the grade I desired, but why it upset me so much that I did not.
And so I’ve found my student new manifesto: learning from every lesson, even those that teach me how to fail.

Diet: Healthy (Vegan) Snacks Under 200 Calories

2010-01-18T03:37:00.000+11:00

[Source Material from Martha Stewart’s Whole Living Magazine]

Fruit
* Soy yogurt parfait with papaya and berries: 164 calories.
* 1/2 cup plain soy yogurt and a generous 1/4 cup of blueberries: 100 calories.  
* 2 dates rolled in 2 tablespoons of coconut: 200 calories.  

Veggies and Dip
* 1 serving vegetable salsa and baked tofu: 151 calories. Get the Recipe.
* 5 endive leaves spread with 1/4 cup olive tapenade: 100 calories.
* 1/2 cup sugar snap peas dipped in 1/3 cup hummus: 180 calories.
* 1 cup raw veggies and 1/4 cup bean spread: 140 calories.

Crispy and Crunchy
* 2/3 cup homemade granola: 194 calories. Get the Recipe.
* 4 kelp (seaweed) crackers: 25 calories.
* 1 handful black-bean chips with salsa: 180 calories.
* 1/2 ounce mini whole-grain pretzel sticks (11 sticks) with 1 teaspoon peanut butter: 95 calories.

Nuts and Seeds
* 1 serving of spiced walnuts: 195 calories. Get the Recipe.
* 1 handful raw nuts and/or seeds: 170 calories.
* 1 raw energy bar (like a Lara Bar): 210 calories.
* 1/4 cup roasted pumpkin seeds, lightly salted: 169 calories.

Delicious Drinks
* 12 ounces cranberry-grapefruit sparkler:108 calories. Get the Recipe.
* 6 ounces vegetable juice: 180 calories.
* 1 cup coconut chai tea with soy milk: 120 calories.
* 1 cup homemade hot cocoa made with 3 tablespoons of high-quality cocoa powder, 7 ounces of almond milk, and 1 tablespoon of raw sugar: 130 calories.

Sweet Treats
* 1/2 ounce vegan dark chocolate with 4 slivered almonds: 96 calories.

Savory Party Plates
* 1 mushroom stuffed with vegan sausage: 107 calories.

Update: The New Year

2010-01-04T03:17:00.001+11:00

School

This time next week I will have taken the GRE.

This time next week I’ll have had my orientation for the MCPHS Nursing Program.

Need to buy my textbooks today… which is only possibly because I own a credit card. I don’t get my dispersement until mid-February. Who designed this system? Because I am not a fan.

Courses I’ll be taking this term:

Nursing History, Nursing Skills and Technologies, Nursing Essentials, Pathology & Pharmacology.

Health & Wellness

Back has been none to pleased with me lately. I’m anxiously awaiting my appointment on the 13th with the surgeon, hoping this will all be resolved soon. Doctor prescribed me a muscle relaxant for my bad days, but I’m having to use it more than I’d like.

Oh, and unsurprisingly I gained a few pounds over the holidays. They will be easy to lose now that the cookies are gone.

Employment & Finance

My money situation is a bit of a worry at the moment. The bar has not been needing me at all, and my unemployment will more than likely be disappearing within a week or two because I will longer be in an approved training program. So… I need some sort of job. This would ideally be sitting, two days a week (ideally, Fri and Sat nights) where I could pull in about $150 after taxes. I don’t need to make a mint, just enough to feed myself and pay bills and gas money. So if anyone is struck with a brilliant idea, let me know.

Personal Practice

Formal practice has been postponed until I can move properly. I have been working on mindful speech and consumption though.

Artistic Endeavors

Possible opportunity to be a club photographer… more on that to come.

Social Life

Lots of socializing with friends old and new. Saw the majority of my close relations from both my mom’s side and my dad’s side. Chilled with a good friend I rarely have the chance to see. Went to quite a few holiday parties and took some incriminating photos… just kidding. (I think. )

Bits & Bobs

Nothing of note really. So…

Namaste all.

Class Review: Anatomy & Physiology II

2009-12-24T13:42:00.002+11:00

Anatomy & Physiology II

BI 162 at Worcester State College

Professor: Dr. Samuel Tarsitano

Schedule: M,W,F 9:30-10:30 (Lab) M 1:30-4:30

Grade Achieved: A

Overall: This class was a unique experience and not necessarily positive. The professor barely lectured abut the material and then proceeded to regale us with bad jokes, personal stories, and political rants. His exams however did not reflect his flippant approach to the material and were quite detail-oriented and I, for the most part, found them challenging. (I have heard his A&P I is far easier)

Instructor: The instructor was more interested in storytime than teaching it seemed. This isn’t to say he doesn’t know what he is talking about, I actually believe he might be some sort of eccentric genius. I say this, because when he did actually lecture, he either had brilliant insight into the detailed workings of a physiological concept or wasn’t ever able to breakdown a complicated idea into something worthy of a 100-level course audience. If this man was offering a workshop or lecture (not to be graded) on a topic of his choice, I would go in a heartbeat. But as a teacher he was disappointing. In general, he could not related to his students issue with comprehension nor did he find any fault in his own in struction when almost 75% of the class failed the first exam.

Grading: The grading was esoteric at best. He had his own method, but I’ll be damned if I could figure it out. All I know is that I received one score from my test questions and then additional points from what may have been bonus questions hidden in the test… I’m really not sure. The exams were difficult. He picked seemingly obscure details from his notes. The questions were often worded strangely. And what ever you do, memorize every little aspect of the vascular system, specifically collateral circulation. The lab exams are upfront enough except when it comes to microscopy. Several members of the class had a difference of opinion concerning some exam slides, but in the end professor is always right.

Materials: Don’t bother reading the book. Rely completely on his slides (and especially the material he talks about in lecture). He doesn’t even use the diagrams in the book. If you are struggling with seeing the big picture on any of the topics I recommend the UC Berkley Integrative Biology lectures on YouTube. That sweet old lady saved my butt.

Notes Technique: I turned the Powerpoint slide outlines into word documents and took notes in red on those on my laptop. I found this useful, because he will often jump from topic to topic. And that way you can also highlight what slides are important.

Study Technique: To study, I nearly memorized his slides word for word. I am not joking. Know the diagrams he gives you in the slides, those will be easy points on the exams.

Class Review: Microbiology

2009-12-24T13:41:00.000+11:00

Microbiology with Lab

BI 204 at Worcester State College

Professor: Dr. Ellen Fynan

Schedule: Lecture M,W,F 11:30-12:30; (Lab) T,TH 1:00-2:30

Grade Achieved: A

Overall: The class was an excellent and through review of microbiology. The professor’s expectations were reasonable and straight forward. She did not go easy on the class, and required a good deal of memorization. The conceptual material was explained quite well during the lecture.

Instructor: The instructor really enjoyed the material she was teaching, especially viruses and vaccines. She made sure to mention how things could be applied to clinical situations, which it made it more interesting.

Grading: The grading was upfront and fair. You were told how many questions and what type of material would be covered on each exam. Small in-class bonus quizzes offer 2 or 3 points here and there. Labs were an easy A if you were sure to read the lab manual before writing out your answers.

Materials: The book was mentioned infrequently in class. The professor relied mainly on her Powerpoint lectures. You could get by in the class without a text I imagine, but I don’t think you would get an A just by studying her lectures. The website for the text proved invaluable for quizzes and mp3 lectures.

Notes Technique: I recorded the lecture slide by slide onto notecards so I wouldn’t have to waste the time later.

Study Technique: To study I used index cards, and made lists/charts for large amounts of information to be memorized.

Class Review: Statistics

2009-12-24T13:40:00.001+11:00

Statistics

MA 150 at Worcester State College

Professor: Christopher Benestad

Schedule: Tuesdays from 6-9

Grade Achieved: A

Overall: The class was far less difficult than I expected it to be. The professor made it simple for anyone to pass the class with a 70 or higher. He went through each concept thoroughly, provided many examples of problems, and answered questions throughout the lecture. I would recommend this class to anyone simply needing to get through Stats with a decent grade.

Instructor: The instructor was interested in the material but understood the perspective of those who were not (like myself). He tried to add a sense of humor and casual feeling to the classroom, though his efforts often fell on apathetic ears.

Grading: The grading was very favorable to the students. He offered an in-class quiz at the beginning of each class covering the material from the week before. Only 10 out of the 12 open notebook quizzes would count towards 70% of the final grade. There was one lab, which was an A to anyone who followed the instructions and then the final exam was cumulative but he provide an almost identical review sheet and went over the answers and took questions right before the final.

Materials: The book was very useful as a supplement to in-class notes. However, I never touched the CD it came with. You could use an older edition of the book with no issue in this class. I would highly recommend getting a graphing calculator, it does all of the math for you. I purchased mine used from a pawn shop for only $30.00.

Notes Technique: I recorded the lecture in my notebook very carefully, knowing that I would be able to use those notes during the quizzes. I also, added to the lecture notes, definitions and concept phrases from the book.

Study Technique: To study for the quizzes, I looked over my notebook beforehand. To study for the final, I completed the scrimmage sheet provided and reviewed the use of my graphing calculator.

Class Review: General Chemistry II

2009-12-24T13:38:00.001+11:00

General Chemistry II with Lab

CH 121 at Worcester State College

Professor: Dr. Albert Petkus

Schedule: Saturdays from 9 – 3

Grade Achieved: B+

Overall: The class was a straight forward review of general chemistry. The topics were covered in detail, but were not examined to the same extent as in the text. The once a week schedule made it difficult to absorb and recall all of the material and I would not recommend it.

Instructor: The instructor was interested in the material and attempted to tie concepts to practical situations. However, he would often discuss “real-life” topics that were interesting but took away from time dedicated to going through problem examples or something more beneficial. Professor did not use Powerpoint, but relied on the whiteboard for notes. Each topic had an optional problems handout for review at home. During lecture however, the professor did not seem to appreciate having to answer questions.

Grading: I felt that the grading was fair. When an issue arose the professor was generally open to discussion about the grade. There was no extra credit available. The first and second tests had an in-class lecture exam and take-home problems. The third exam was completely in class and was scaled slightly. Achieving an A on a lab was simple so long as you were neat, followed typical format and included all data and calculations.

Materials: The book was not mentioned in class, and was therefore suggested as material for personal review. I found it more confusing than helpful and often relied upon educational tutorials on YouTube instead.

Notes Technique: I recorded the lecture in my notes word for word, and made sure to copy every problem demonstrated verbatim.

Study Technique: To study I used index cards for definitions and formulas, and recorded each point in the chapter summaries from the text, I wrote out the steps to solving each problem type, I practiced problems until I felt I had a strong grasp on the material.

Update: Life: Reclaimed!

2009-12-21T04:29:00.003+11:00

Been a long while since an update, nearly two months actually, since a real update. Anyway. The semester is over and my short lived academic career at Worcester State College is over. Heading into the holidays and that’s always fun.

School

Finals are over and done with, and so I can give you the expected results of each class. I’ll be posting separate reviews of each class on the blog for future students.

Anatomy & Physiology 2… Can’t imagine I didn’t get an A in this class. I had a 103 average going into the final, which took the pressure off. It was a fun class if absurd. It’s a pity such a brilliant man can’t teach.

Chemistry… Didn’t do so great on the final, B+. Makes me a little sad just to type the letter. But in the bigger picture my GPA should only go down to 3.9. Still very much scholarship material. Have to say, this class was a little bit of torture every Saturday (all day…) My other chemistry teacher at FSC made it appealing enough that I looked forward to my homework, this instructor just made it seem like drudgery. This class was a lesson in how class timing and an instructor can make or break an A.

Stats… haven’t gotten the grade back, but almost absolutely sure I got an A. This class was far more simple that I thought, even with the math. Funny, I actually was good enough to tutor folks. Who knew?

Microbiology… A on the final, A in the class. Really, really enjoyed this class. There was some foolish rote memorization asked of us, but generally, we just got to learn about neat things. The experiments were a blast.

GRE: Trying to study at least 4-5 hours a day until I take the test on January 6^th.

MCPHS Nursing Program: Can’t get an advance on loans for my supplies, so hopefully Santa wants to give me textbooks for Christmas, or this will all be going on a credit card until my disbursement in mid-February.

Health & Wellness

PT is done and over with. SI seems to be in alignment consistently, but my piriformis are still a constant issue making it difficult to walk. Contacted the Doc and had an MRI. What we found made me thankful I could still walk. (If you want a peek check out my FB profile) I have a large centrally herniated disk on L4/L5. I have an appointment with a neurosurgeon in mid-January. My money is on me needing surgery, but I can always hope for the really long and ugly steroid shot.

Employment & Finance

I got an extension on unemployment, but I am switching academic programs, so that may be going away. As will my decent healthcare coverage.

The bar is good when I am there. But I don’t think one night is sufficient. I need another ½ day a week job that will give me $100 a week. That’s what I need to survive. If anyone has any brilliant, mostly legal ideas… I’d love your thoughts.

Personal Practice

Has been horrible. This is me judging myself here. Completely been neglecting sitting. I’m coming to the conclusion, that I am more invested and transformed by yoga. But yoga classes take cash. *sigh* Once I figure out what I can and can’t do with my back in this state, I am going to try and take up yoga seriously again.

Artistic Endeavors

None currently. But I just finished my brother’s wedding album. I’m pleased with how it came out and I am thinking of making myself available on craigslist as a pro-amateur photographer for hire.

Social Life

The last few weeks, there has been no social life to speak of. Lots of isolation of me in my room… with books and notecards... and diagrams of viscera. Do I know how to have a good time or what?

Bits & Bobs

My pet rat, Wimbly, is turning out not to be that friendly. I go to feed him and he snaps at me. He lets me pick him up without biting (unless is smell of food) but that dashes to be somewhere else. He seems to be eating a great deal (5-6 lab pellets) or if not, loses weight. I’m doing my best to care for him, but I feel little emotional attachement right now.

Baking cookies. I’m baking lots of cookies, which is lovely and dangerous business. Batter is just so tempting.

And that’s it…. Or everything that occurs to me to be important. (to me anyway).

Namaste all.

Photography - Doherty Wedding

2009-12-20T10:06:00.002+11:00

Wedding of Torren Doherty & Loren Massa

Bocado in Worcester, Massachusetts

December 4th, 2009

Recipes: Vegan Pumpkin Pecan Mini Pies

2009-11-29T04:54:00.000+11:00

This recipe is the combination of three separate ones. All of them are listed below.

Essential you make each recipe in full. And then do the following:

Roll out your crusts and then cut circles out using whatever you can find in the right size to fill a normal sized muffin tin. Press the crust into the greased muffin tin. Pour pumpkin filling in and bake at 425* for about 20 minutes. Then top with pecan filling and bake at 350* for about 45 minutes. Voila, you have yumminess.

Each of these mini pies is only 200 calories.

Now the recipes:

FLAKY PIE CRUST

{Art of Vegan Baking p. 214}
Makes enough for 2 regular 9” bottom crust pies or 24 mini pies

Ingredients
2.5 cups flour
1 t confectioner’s sugar
½ t salt
½ cup veggie shortening
½ cup Earth Balance
1/3 cup + 1 T ice water

Preparation
In a medium bowl with fork, lightly stir together flour, sugar and salt. With pastry blender or two knives used scissor fashion, cut in margarine/shortening until mixture resembles coarse crumbs.

Sprinkle in cold water, a tablespoon at a time, mixing lightly with a fork after each addition until pastry just holds together. With hands, shape pastry into ball (if it's a hot day you may have to refrigerate the dough for 30 minutes or so).

On lightly floured surface with lightly floured rolling pin, roll larger ball into a 1/8 inch thick circle, 2 inches larger all around than pie plate. Roll half of circle onto rolling pin; transfer pastry to pie plate and unroll, easing into bottom and side of plate. Fill as recipe directs.

168 Calories per slice
112 Calories per mini pie serving

SOUTHERN-STYLE PECAN PIE
{ Post-punk Kitchen }
Makes one 9” pie that serves eight or 24 mini pies

Ingredients

1 pre-baked pie crust

2 cups of lightly roasted pecans, chopped

1/3 cup of agave syrup

3/4 cup Maple syrup

1 T vanilla extract

1 T grated ginger

Pinch of salt

1 1/2 t arrowroot powder

3 T of ground flax seeds

1/3 cup of soy milk

Preparation

Pre-heat to 350 degrees

Put the syrups, salt, extract, and ginger into a sauce pan and simmer
for about five minutes. The let it cool to room temp.

Mix the soy milk with the flax and arrowroot and then blend
with the syrups in a blender or food processor. Put
the pecans into a mixing bowl and combine with the mixture. Then
pour the filling into the pie crust and place into oven.

Bake for about 30 to 45 minutes until the filling is thick. Serve. Enjoy.

348 Calories per slice
170 Calories per mini pie

SOUTHERN-STYLE PECAN PIE
{ Post-punk Kitchen }
Makes one 9” pie that serves eight or 24 mini pies

Ingredients

1 pre-baked pie crust

2 cups of lightly roasted pecans, chopped

1/3 cup of agave syrup

3/4 cup Maple syrup

1 T vanilla extract

1 T grated ginger

Pinch of salt

1 1/2 t arrowroot powder

3 T of ground flax seeds

1/3 cup of soy milk

Preparation

Pre-heat to 350 degrees

Put the syrups, salt, extract, and ginger into a sauce pan and simmer
for about five minutes. The let it cool to room temp.

Mix the soy milk with the flax and arrowroot and then blend
with the syrups in a blender or food processor. Put
the pecans into a mixing bowl and combine with the mixture. Then
pour the filling into the pie crust and place into oven.

Bake for about 30 to 45 minutes until the filling is thick. Serve. Enjoy.

348 Calories per slice
170 Calories per mini pie

Photography - Old Burying Ground, Cambridge

2009-11-18T14:09:00.001+11:00

Photographed: 11 November 2009

Location: Cambridge, MA

Images captured at the Old Burying Ground in Harvard Square.

Photography - Short Hike in Woods

2009-11-18T14:08:00.001+11:00

Photographed: 9 November 2009

Location: Thompson, Connecticutt

A few photos from a short hike in the woods near Thompson Dam.

On My 28th Birthday...

2009-11-11T06:50:00.001+11:00

On my 28^th Birthday…

I am pursuing a career that truly feeds my spirit and mind.
My academic achievements are the most successful ever, so far.
I’m in the best shape of my life.
I am blessed to have trusted and supportive friends who share my interests and tolerate my oddities.
I have family who care for me and support my pursuits, without such support I would be unable to do so.
I have the freedom to express myself as everything that I am and be accepted for it.

Update: Tests Everywhere!

2009-10-30T06:35:00.001+11:00

Tests! Lots of them this week - one in each subject actually. I kinda like the stress though. I know I’m weird, like Hermione weird. Looking forward to my birthday in under two weeks. 28. Not sure what that supposed to feel like, but I’m ok with it. Have a new friend,Winbly the rat! Someone to keep me company while I study. And in general, I’m really happy with life, there are some rough patches, sure, but I have a good balance right now.

School

Anatomy & Physiology 2… Lecture test on lymph and immune systems coming up on Monday. Had a lab practical this past Monday. Pretty sure I did alright. This upcoming test seems more reasonable with the slight exception of the B/T cell interaction.

Chemistry… did pretty well on the first test: A- But my lab scores average around an A, which is good. Have the test on Saturday, which I may purposely miss so I have more time to study.

Stats… I did well enough on this last quiz, trying to keep my average at a 95, so that I can get only an 80 on the final and still have an A. Good plan – we’ll see if I can make it happen. Think I ace’d the last quiz and next weeks is almost the same material... so happily less studying, so I can focus on all my other subject tests.

Microbiology… have another test this week on Friday. (Yes, that puts me at 4 exams this week – one per class). This one is both complicated and tedious, the genetics is pretty in-depth and then there is the ba-jillion individual bacteria and their characteristics to memorize. Whee.

MCPHS Nursing Program: Got my booklist and uniform/stethoscope requirements. Eek! Hope I can get an advance on my loans!

Health & Wellness

Had another PT evaluation today. Apparently, my SI is still not stabilized. So I was given different exercises and some thera-bands. The PT would like t see me in an SI belt while doing any standing, walking or asymmetrical movements. I think this could be for the best. I’m really done with this whole legs giving out, butt ache thing. Plus I start practical’s in January and its important for nursing to be able to stand, so I hear.

Employment & Finance

$200 left of training compensation. So there’s that. But I picked up another night at the Playhouse Bar, and I’m hoping that compensates. I’d like to keep some small amount of savings in case my car blows up, or I need to flee the country.

Personal Practice

Back with 20 minute meditation sessions in the morning. Really pleased about that. Also keeping up with nightly spiritual readings and daily zen emails. Try to make more of a practice out of eating and walking.

Artistic Endeavors

Not really. Have a plot to make a costume…maybe over Thanksgiving break? It might serve me well in the Holidays.

Planning Halloween/Birthday costumes. Might even involve some real makeup work… yay!

Social Life

Working at the bar constitutes being social for me… lots of chill folks to chat with there when its slow.

Game night as usual, assuming I don’t have any upcoming tests. So that’s a no go this week.

Bits & Bobs

Most importantly… I have a pet! He’s a rat named Wimbly, that I adopted from someone through faire who could no longer keep him. Hes a bit skittish still but doesn’t bit or anything. I try and hold him for at least 30 every day.. usually more like an hour. He chills with me on the bed (read: hides under the pillows) when I’m studying there. Loves bananas. He has a bit of a musk thing going on, which is normal, but I think it may be a bit out of hand, so I’m trying to brush him and feed him flaxseed oil (good for his coat).

Did some gigs and have another one coming up tomorrow – medieval murder mystery. Should be a blast. Love getting to play with people. Good stuff.

Namaste all.

Recipe: Whipped Sweet Potatoes

2009-10-21T14:37:00.000+11:00

vegan - low fat - high in vitamin A

serves 8

ingredients

4 medium-large sweet potatoes
2 T butter
1/8 t cinnamon
2 T orange juice
4 T soymilk

preparation

Peel and boil sweet potatoes. When tender, pour off water. Add orange juice, butter, milk and cinnamon and whip with mixer.

Nutrition per serving 89 calories; 2g total fat; 0mg cholesterol; 51mg sodium; 16g carbohydrates; 2g fiber; 5g sugar; 1g protein – glycemic index; 6

Recipe: Black Bean Cakes

2009-10-21T14:11:00.001+11:00

vegan – high fiber – high protein - low fat

makes 6 servings

ingredients

1 - 15 oz. can black beans, drained, and rinsed
1 t chili powder
1 t garlic powder
1 t ground cumin
1/2 t salt
1/4 t freshly ground black pepper
1/8 t cayenne pepper
1 cup red pepper, finely diced
1/2 cup red onion, thinly sliced
(2 T jalapeno pepper, finely diced)
3 T freshly chopped cilantro
2 T lime juice
1/2 cup unbleached flour, divided
2 T cornmeal

preparation

In a medium bowl, place the black beans, chili powder, garlic powder, cumin, salt, pepper, and cayenne pepper and mash. Add the red pepper, green onion, jalapeno pepper, cilantro, and lime juice, and stir well to combine. On a plate, place 1/4 cups flour, cornmeal, and stir well to combine, and set aside. Add the remaining flour to the black bean mixture and stir well to combine. Make into patties (or in my case mini-balls), and place them on a large plate. Chill the bean cakes for 30 minutes or more in the refrigerator.

Lightly oil a non-stick cookie sheet with a little safflower oil and set aside. Coat the chilled cakes in the reserved flour/cornmeal mixture and place them on the cookie sheet.Bake them at 450 degrees for 12-15 minutes or until lightly browned and crisp on the outside.

Nutrition per serving 152 calories; 1g total fat; 0mg cholesterol; 5mg sodium; 30g carbohydrates; 8g fiber; 3g sugar; 8g protein – glycemic index; 12

RECIPE: Oatmeal Dark Chocolate Pecan Cookies

2009-10-18T07:43:00.000+11:00

vegan - low sodium

Makes 42 cookies (or there about)

Obviously, these are cookies. Cookies are not meant to be healthful. That said, I tried to make these a little more health friendly in several ways:

I cut the called for sugar in half
I used half the butter and replaced the other half with applesauce
I chopped the nuts finer so I could use less of them, but still have lots of nuts in every cookie
I made the cookies more bite-sized. This helps with portion control.

Ingredients

2 T ground flaxseed + 6 T of water, blended until creamy (this replaces the 2 eggs)

1/2 cup of Earth Balance

1/2 cup applesauce

1 cup dark brown sugar

2 t vanilla extract

1 3/4 cup whole wheat pastry flour

1/2 cup oat bran

3/4 t baking soda

3/4 t baking powder

1/2 t salt

1/2 t cinnamon

1/2 t nutmeg

1 cup rolled oats (not quick-cooking)

1/2 cup chopped pecans

1/2 cup dark chocolate chips (check for milkfat!)

Preparation

Oven at 350*

1 - Cream the sugar and 'butter'. Then add in applesauce, vanilla, and flaxseed goo.

2 - In a different bowl, mix together all the dry ingredients, except chips and nuts.

3 - Combine the two bowls, then slowly fold in tasty chips and nuts.

4 - Scoop little 1 tablespoon balls on to greased tray, these won't spread too much, so don't worry.

5 - Bake until bottoms are golden brown, about 12-15 minutes.

6 - Eat and Savor.

Nutrition per serving (1 cookie) 70 calories; 6g total fat; 0mg cholesterol; 25mg sodium; 6g carbohydrates; 1g fiber; 3g sugar; 1g protein

RECIPE: Rhubarb-Orange Jam-Filled Muffins

2009-10-16T01:12:00.000+11:00

vegan – high fiber

makes 12 muffins

Ingredients

1 cups whole wheat pastry flour

2 cups oat bran
4 t baking powder
1 t cinnamon powder
1/2 t salt
2 T ground flax seed whisked with 6 T warm water

1 1/4 cup soymilk
3 T unsweetened applesauce
3 T canola oil
6 T packed dark brown sugar + 2 stevia packets
½ cup walnuts, chopped

1/2 cup jam (in this case, rhubarb-orange conserve from a local Trappist monastery)

Preparation

1 - Preheat the oven to 425 degrees F.
2 - Mix together the first dry ingredients: bran, flour, baking powder, salt, cinnamon.
3 - In another bowl, add whisked flaxseed/water, oil, applesauce, and sugar and soymilk.
4 - Stir mixtures together until blended. Fold in walnuts.
5 - Fill greased muffin tins halfway and then spoon roughly 1 teaspoon of jam in the middle. Gently top with batter and press against sides of tin, covering the jam completely. Bake for about 15-20 minutes or until a thin skewer comes out clean when inserted.

Nutrition per serving 215 calories

Update: Unwinding the Stress Ball

2009-10-14T13:56:00.001+11:00

Lots of stress. You know - that type of residual stress that eeks into everyday life, affecting silly little things such as concentration and sleep… I’m working on finding ways to let it go but my default: running/ cardio exercise, isn’t really an option at the moment. So I’m nurturing myself as best I can. I went for a walk and meditated in the woods, I baked… I’ve been less stringent with my food choices… but this behavior has slid downhill into some pretty significant gluttonous behavior. So this week is working out a balance and trying to turn to something other than sugary carbohydrates for that sense of grounding I desire.
I had a lovely weekend with friends. Details below of course.

School

Anatomy & Physiology 2… I am not pleased with the professor… at all. I wrote a very direct email about our last exam (for which I have yet to receive my grade) about how I felt the test was unreasonable and not balanced. In addition to the fact that there were not clear expectations communicated on the part of the professor.

Chemistry… has a lab report due. Still awaiting my grade for the first test.

Stats… is getting more complicated but the required math is lessening also. A balance really. Working on fractals and binomial probability distribution. Pretty straightforward.

Microbiology… has a test this week. I’ll start studying in earnest tomorrow, but the material is all laid out, I just have to memorize it. Tricky part will be all the different antibiotics, their sources and their actions on the microbes. Still it’s all wonderfully fascinating. Today in lab, we did a culture from the school environment; I choose the biology floor button on the elevator. Should be interesting to see what colonies grow. We also did some hand washing tests on ourselves. I hope I don’t find anything to dangerous.

Health & Wellness

Much better physical therapist now. We’ve really pinpointed the issue, for better or worse. We’ve discovered the rotation in my hip is not just in one direction, but my entire right SI joint has loose connective tissue. This isn’t great news as not much can be done, but encourage the muscle to be more supportive and keep the hip in alignment. The PT thinks that my hyper-flexibility from ballet combined with running set me up for and issue, but then when I threw my back and was out of commission, I really set the issue off. Its difficult to say, but it’s a good theory. However her work on my hips and my new to me mattress has made most of the spasms disperse, but I am still left with a bone achy sort of pain in my hips randomly and sometimes my lower legs/feet go numb, which is awkward to say the least. Who knew that I’d start to fall apart at 28?

Employment & Finance

Plugging along. Not fabulously rich but I get by. Good to have the gigs the other week. Little concerned about what will happen come December when I am no longer at WSC and don’t qualify for the Training Program anymore. I don’t think I’ll be able to work much, if at all with my nursing program. Someone did recommend becoming a paid nurse intern though.

Personal Practice

Hoping to do more nature walks. I’ve fallen back into morning meditation, pretty regularly, which is really wonderful. I’ve been reading Tricycle and Shambala Sun. The articles are perfect for rewarding but light reading. Working of cooking and eating as part of my practice. I have a new mantra before meals:
With awareness and restraint, without indulgence, - I take this food for sustenance.

Artistic Endeavors

Not so much. No time with test really. Have one costume pretty much set but I need ideas for another – mine got too pricey. So, affordable ideas for some costume involving a mask anyone?

Social Life

The wedding this past weekend was delightful. Met many new people and had lots of interesting conversations. Dancing was great, as always.

CTRF was chilly but lots of fun. Its funny how it really takes me a day or two with crowds to really solidify my gimmick with a character. But this weekend everything fell into place and felt spot on.

I had the chance to see Jimmy and Adrienne, back from the UK briefly. We went out for Japanese and then sat about chatting spirituality and eco-friendly shopping and meditation techniques. A splendid meeting of liked minded folks, but I’d expect nothing less.

Bits & Bobs

Had to get the electric heater going in my room today. Brr. But I had the clever notion to set it to 65* and put it on a 24 hour timer so its off at night and during the day when I am not around.

Not too much to say here, so…

Namaste all.

Recipe: Apple Pecan Muffins

2009-10-07T03:14:00.000+11:00

vegan – high fiber

makes 12 muffins

Ingredients

2 cups whole wheat pastry flour
1 T baking powder
1 t cinnamon powder
1/2 t salt
2 T ground flax seed whisked with 6 T warm water
1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce
4 T canola oil
¼ cup sugar
1 t vanilla extract
2 medium apples, peeled and chopped
½ cup pecans, chopped

Preparation

1 - Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F.
2 - Mix together the first dry ingredients: flour, baking powder, salt, cinnamon.
3 - In another bowl, add whisked flaxseed, oil, applesauce, vanilla, and sugar.
4 - Stir mixtures together until blended. Fold in apples and half the pecans.
5 - Fill greased muffin tins and then top with remaining pecans. Bake for about 20 minutes or until a thin skewer comes out clean when inserted.

Nutrition per serving 200 calories; 9g total fat; 0mg cholesterol; 124mg sodium; 28g carbohydrates; 3g fiber; 6g sugar; 4g protein

Update: Prepare and Enjoy

2009-09-29T23:42:00.002+11:00

School

Bit of a stressful week, this week. Overlap of tests in my two most difficult subjects: A&P – because the teacher doesn’t actually teach the material, and Chemistry 2 – because it involves math, my not so strong point.

In other news, I didn’t get the internship. Looks like it was first come – first served. Might be for the best, I have little enough time as it is.

Anatomy & Physiology 2… struggling to memorize the circulatory system this week. But I think I’ll be ok.

Chemistry… Working on my problems this week, two a day. Hopefully, I struggle a bit less with this set.

Stats… is tonight. Got an A on my first quiz and thinking tonight’s should be much the same. Its not a difficult class if you read and do the homework.

Microbiology… is great as usual. Counting colonies in the lab today. I got an 98/A on my first test, which proves that my study methods match up with the demands of the class. Very straightforward.

Health & Wellness

Back/Hips still really bothersome. I’m going to try to take yoga back up at the gym this week. I also, might be in the market for a chiropractor.

Employment & Finance

Unemployment is still going. Cutting down to 1 day a week at the bar is making things a bit tight. But I’ll get by.

I’m excited about a paying gig this Thursday night. Hopefully some pictures to come.

Personal Practice

Non-traditional as of late, reading, walking, eating mindfully. Hoping to return to formal sitting soon.

Artistic Endeavors

Dress for CTRF finished. Halloween costume ideas on the back burner until my tests are completed this week.

Social Life

CTRF opened this weekend and I got to see all my friends. I had a fabulous time despite the rain, but I may need to waterproof my shoes. I love my character, such fun! I hope to see you all down there!

Chill night with Sean and gaming night need to be skipped this week, due to studying. *sigh* School always comes first.

Bits & Bobs

Car didn’t happen. Too bad really, it was perfect. But it might be good to have the backup money in my account. I’ll just leave it there and keep my eye out for something in my price range that’s fuel-efficient. Hopefully my boat of a car stays together long enough to see that through.

Cleaned my room and rearranged furniture. Its feeling much more spacious now.

Finally bought the external hard drive to back up my computer. What a relief. One day when I have time, I’ll try and find those missing pictures of mine.

Still hoping to find time to go apple/pumpkin picking. Perhaps on a Saturday afternoon after I get out of Chemistry. I think waiting for faire to be over might be too late in the season.

I realized recently, that I really have a wonderful life. I’m healthy (for the most part) surrounded by fantastic people, doing well in my academic pursuits, and not having to worry overmuch about money. I know nothing is permanent, but I’m pleased that I can relish the moment while I’m still in it.

Namaste all.

Update: Officially Accepted

2009-09-16T22:32:00.002+11:00

School

Biggest, best-est news yet… I got officially accepted to Mass. College of Pharmacy and Health Science’s (MCPHS) accelerated BSN program starting this January. I’m elated.

More mundane, the semester is well and truly started.

I am loving Microbiology and I am going out for an internship with Department of Public Health in Worcester for pandemic preparations and response. Hope I get it, as it seems like a really interesting way to spend a few hours a week and right in line with the kind of nursing I want to do.

Anatomy & Physiology 2… is interesting. The professor is a brilliant and zany man who spent the first few lectures discussing the evils of modified corn syrup (with which I generally agree) but did not really lecture on the anatomy of the heart at all. Well, now we’ve touched upon and it and I’m worried – he doesn’t stick to his notes and lectures a million miles a minute. I really don’t want to have to teach myself the material. I’m a touch nervous as to what he is actually going to cover on his tests.

Chemistry… I actually need to do my problems this morning before class. It is the same material I covered this summer but with more meaning and depth. I think I should be good on this front, but these problems do have me thinking.

Stats… is tedious and painfully slow moving. Its not difficult material and I really really wish I could have done it this summer as an accelerated class. Now its like pulling teeth.

Overall, I prefer summer class format – the onslaught of new information and the high demands/quick deadlines make me happy. Dragging the information out over several sessions just seems like a waste of time. But that said, I still adore being in school. Yay nerd-dom!

Health & Wellness

Physical therapy is slow going. I’ve started doing the elliptical and some painful stretching, but all will be well eventually.

I’ve had some sort of sick for a few days this last week, nothing dire, just cough and a bit of a sore throat that gets worse near bedtime. Doing what I can – resting, liquids, echineasia, vitamin c, neti pot. Should be over soon.

Employment & Finance

Unemployment is now training stipend and that’s cool… especially since I’m going out for a paid internship at the Department of Public Health in Worcester dealing with pandemics. Really excited about that.

Personal Practice

Restricted lately to spiritual reading and reflection… but that’s still something.

Artistic Endeavors

Working on a dress for CTRF. Having sleeve issues. There will be pictures when its finished.

Social Life

CTRF rocks. Will be opening in 2 weeks and I fully expect everyone to come out for it… I’ll just be there Sunday due to class schedule. But I’d love to see folks. Ask me if you need details.

There is a birthday party in the works. Email invites will be out soon. But save 11/7!

Bits & Bobs

Still waiting on car stuff. Hoping something will come about soon-ish.

Sad news. My Fiji dad passed away some time ago. He was a wonderful man who took me in as a daughter when he had no reason to. I’m very thankful for having met him and shared the time that we did together.

Loving the fall weather... I need to plan my apple/pumpkin picking trips soon-ish. Who’s in?

Namaste all.

Poetry: A Child

2009-09-03T23:05:00.002+11:00

A woman lies alone

A child fills the hollow grief

How could I be so blind ?

Update: Back to the Books

2009-09-02T14:20:00.003+11:00

School

Start classes tomorrow. I'm looking forward to my fall line-up, but I am a bit apprehensive about the loan I am taking on. I'd like to maintain my current GPA if possible.

Books cost a fortune! $500 and I think I need another lab manual.., I am hoping to get my Stats book through a friend though.

Health & Wellness

The back saga... I saw a physical therapist on Monday. She gave me good news. Looks like it is not a bulging disc but a compressed one. Apparently an old maladjustment in my hip (my right pelvis tilts forward) is causing a disc in my illiosacral area/ L5 to compress and pinch my sciatic nerve. This is completely curable with some PT, stretching and exercise. Yay!

Good news about the above mentioned condition is that I can exercise again! I have to be cautious at the moment, no running... but I can do the elliptical. I'm so relieved - I can't wait to get back to it.

Employment & Finance

Unemployment will switch over to training program support soon and I will no longer have to file and that'll be nice.

Had to take out an additional $1500 for school fees and books, but it looks like I might have a bit left over, which will ease the car issue a bit.

Personal Practice

Started meditating again. I'm still not into it completely... no consistency yet. But I hope to work it into my daily pattern before class in the morning... and then gym after to clear my head. I think it should work out well.

Artistic Endeavors

Haven't had to much time to do the mixed media stuff. But I'll get around to it once I'm settled into a routine a bit.

I'm excited to have a sewing project coming up for CTRF. Old dress that didn't fit and I gave up on, should be able to be reworked to fit now. I'm really pleased since this was my first attempt at a really authentic medieval dress in nice linen.

Social Life

Started seeing someone and its great. I've forgotten how nice it feels to be able to spend time in someone's company like this. We have a great deal in common, but also, many new things to share with each other. Good stuff.

CTRF rehearsal this past weekend. It was wonderful to reconnect with folks. Looking forward to exploring my character and developing her further. At the moment, she's a bit fuzzy but along the lines of a spacey, superstitious girl who sees/hears things others can't. Seems like she will work great with children on the street.

Bits & Bobs

Still working on the car. Hoping something will come together soon.

Fridge is sold and new one has been procured. It is full of awesome - I can fit a whole gallon of 'ice cream' in my mini freezer. Or bunch of those So Delicious coconut ice cream sandwiches I found that are amazing!

Haven't done much with the food blog. Haven't been planning food much at all. Bad me, I know. I'll back to it now that I'll have limited time to shop during the week. I can't wait though... it is nearly soup/stew season.

Namaste all.

Photography: Northampton, MA

2009-08-26T14:01:00.000+11:00

Photographed: 9 August 2009

Location: Northampton, Massachusetts

Some shots from the downtown area of Northampton.

Photography: Sturbridge, Masschusetts - Reservoir

2009-08-26T13:41:00.000+11:00

Photographed: 8 August 2008

Location: Sturbridge, Massachusetts

A small collection of photos from a short break

in Sturbridge on my way to Northampton.

Photography: Prudence Island, RI

2009-08-21T22:45:00.000+11:00

Prudence Island, RI

August 17 - 20, 2009

Images from a very brief vacation

to Prudence Island, a small isolated island

off the coast of Bristol, RI.

Update: A Few Small Bumps

2009-08-18T10:15:00.000+11:00

School

Just passed the Accuplacer to qualify for my Statistics course in the fall and that is a good thing. Registered for 3 courses today, waiting on a professor approval for Microbiology. Looks like I’ll have to take out extra financial aid to cover books and some school fees. Its all part of the trial of being a student I guess.

Health & Wellness

Hurt my back badly. No specific incident to cause trauma, as far as I can tell. Just woke up one morning twisted and crooked… literally. Went to the ER and got some meds. They’ve run out now so I’m making due with Ibprofen, Aleve, the odd libation and lots of laying down in the fetal position. It works, sort of. Looks like I’ll need an MRI and probably physical therapy. I miss being really active… running and such. Or dancing at a friend’s prom themed dance party.

Gained some weight. Not pleased. But mostly due to my complete lack of physical activity. I’m trying to watch what I eat, but when you’re lazy and in pain you don’t care as much.

Employment & Finance

Unemployment coming in is good. Got my second loan check, the hefty one. Paid off my GapCard completely. Waiting till my finally loan installment comes through to pay off the AmEx. I’m always paranoid that something will happen where I will need money quickly – see mention of car below.

Personal Practice

Haven’t been yet due to back/car issues. Soon I hope.

Artistic Endeavors

Started producing mixed media pieces. Will build a few more and put them on my photo blog for sale, if folks are interested. Also, happily able to do commissioned themes.

Social Life

Still looking forward to CTRF… 2 weeks to go.

The bar: Come to open mic on Thursdays. Amazingly talented folks performing.

Going with my recently reconnected friend, Sean on a brief 3-day vacation to an isolated little island off of Rhode Island called Prudence Island. Not much tech or consumerism. I’m looking forward to it a great deal. I’m bringing my camera and a few books I haven’t had time to read yet. Too bad I’m not in better shape for hiking.

Bits & Bobs

The Car. Its not in a good way – and I don’t mean its pregnant. It needs repairs and I can’t seem to sell it on Craigslist. Looks like I be underselling to a dealer. Good news is a friend’s sister and a friend are both selling their newer more fuel-efficient cars right now. Hoping one of them will work out.

Target has a dual mini-fridge/freezer which I am going to buy. I’m going to be selling my old one (still under warranty) for $75. (bought for $100) It is bigger than your average dorm fridge and in spotless condition. Let me know if you are interested. First come first served.

Halfway finished with my recipe/nutrition blog. Decided to call it “eat like you give a damn.” Seemed appropriate.

Namaste all.

Recipe: Mushroom & Spinach Summer Lasagna

2009-08-07T02:50:00.002+11:00

MUSHROOM & SPINACH SUMMER LASAGNA
Serves 8
205 Calories per serving (Low-Carb)

Ingredients

1 lbs frozen spinach
2 t vegan ‘butter’ ?
3 cloves garlic, minced
1 pound ‘ricotta’ cheese
- ¼ c cashews
- 1 lb tofu
- 1T lemon juice
- 1 clove garlic, minced
- ½ t salt
1 lbs mixed mushrooms, cut into large chunks
2 t sweet balsamic vinegar
¼ cup chopped fresh flat-leaf parsley
1 cup plain soy milk
2T all-purpose whole wheat pastry flour
1/4 t ground nutmeg
6 oz. grated mozzarella soy cheese
Sufficient thin zucchini slices (2-3 zucchini)
Salt & Freshly ground black pepper

Instructions

Heat oven to 350 degrees.

Spinach:
Saute the garlic until light golden in butter. Drain spinach in a colander. Add the spinach leaves, cover, and cook, stirring occasionally, 4 to 5 minutes. Drain spinach in a colander. Place in a large bowl.

Make Ricotta:
Combine tofu, cashew, salt, garlic and lemon juice in a food processor. Blend until the texture of ricotta cheese. Combine with spinach mixture in bowl and add pepper to taste.

Mushrooms:
Melt 1/2 t butter and saute the mushrooms until soft and browned. Then add 1t salt and pepper. Deglaze skillet by pouring 2 t balsamic vinegar into hot skillet with mushrooms and using a wooden spoon to loosen bits cooked onto skillet. Cook mushrooms until liquid has almost evaporated. Put cooked mushrooms into medium bowl and combine with parsley.

Make White Sauce:
In saucepan melt ½ t butter. When butter bubbles, add flour and whisk constantly, 1 minute. Slowly add warmed milk - whisking constantly, until mixture becomes thick. Remove pan from heat and stir in 1/2 t salt, pepper, ¼ t nutmeg. Set aside.

Assemble Lasagna:
Spread some sauce in bottom of 9-by-13-inch baking pan. Place layer of zucchini in pan. Spread spinach mixture, then mushroom mixture, and finally some sauce on top. Repeat layers several times. For last layer, place a layer of ricotta mixture on top; spread sauce over zucchini then sprinkle with 1/2 cup grated cheese.

Bake lasagna until top is golden brown, 1 hours. Let stand 20 minutes before serving.

Update: Past Successes and Future Endeavors

2009-08-03T12:54:00.003+11:00

School

Great news… for folks who don’t already know – I got a 100 on my chem. final and an A as a final grade in the class! Completely unexpected but wonderful. Gives me confidence for my upcoming semester in which I am taking on too many classes: Chem II, A&P II, Microbioolgy and Stats – all at the same time. Come Sept. 2 I will again have no life. So now I’m just finishing up my last two weeks of psych and then I get two weeks of summer. Woot.

Health & Wellness

Gym is the same. Workout the same. Feeling a bit lazy though.
Nutrition is going. Working on the new blog bit by bit. I’ve been being really irresponsible on the weekends… even moderation in moderation though.

Employment & Finance

Unemployment coming in is good. Just got my first loans check – still not enough to pay off the cards with my tutition on them – but enough to pay this month’s minimum payment.

Personal Practice

I have plans to visit a temple this week to kick off my practice. It’s in Paxton, though I’ve never been. I also heard rumor of one in Barre but I could be wrong. If anyone has input please chime in.

Artistic Endeavors

I have a new mixed media project in mind for sale in galleries and online. Maybe on Etsy. Still perfecting the production process and determining what themes fit the style and are marketable. If anyone has any particular photos they think might make good art let me know. My (incomplete) online gallery is at www.ajnaphotography.blogspot.com

Social Life

Missing Pennsic. There is always next year – I’ll just be really prepared and save up all year.

Still looking forward to CTRF.

The bar is awesome and folks should come visit me!

Met up with my best friend from high school whose moved back into the area from Spain for at least a year. Its great to have a good friend so local.

Reconnected with a new friend that I lost touch with some time ago due to a million things, but now he’s closer and that is full of the awesome.

Planning some mini-vacations before I head back to the books. So, thats exciting.

Bits & Bobs

So my car has a belt out of place… visibly. Doesn’t seem to affect function, so I am assuming its AC or the Superturbo charge thing. I’m bringing it in tomorrow and praying to the car gods that it is cheap and quick. I don’t have the resources for anything else right now.

Still on the lookout for a small square (medical style) freezer… any one hears of anything let me know.

Namaste all.

New Project - Half Bar for Closet

2009-08-03T12:21:00.003+11:00

I needed more closet space and was envious of the lovely, expensive custom closets I saw in magazines. You know the ones that are all organized and partitioned...

Well, today I resolved that. I went to Home Depot, picked up a few supplies and with no tools made a second level of my closet for a fraction of the cost of the custom closet systems.

Here's what you need:

1 - 1/2 In. X 36 In. Galvanized Degree Nipple Pipe (or what

ever length you need)

2 - 1/2 In. Galvanized Degree Floor Flange

4 - Lehigh 1/4 In. Zinc Plated Spring Link

A length of Crown Bolt #135 x 1 Ft. Chain Handy Link Zinc

Plated

2 - 2 In. Galvanized DWV Hanger

Here's how you do it:

Vegan-on-a-Shoestring: Week 4

2009-07-28T06:19:00.001+11:00

Week 5

high fiber | low fat | high protein | vegan | around 1500 calories

Breakfast: Berry granola, almond milk, banana

Morning Snack: Peach, carrot sticks

Lunch: BLT salad, caramel rice cake

Afternoon Snack: fruit soy yogurt

Dinner: Simple Summer Pasta

Beverages: almond milk, stevia-sweetened earl grey iced tea (new favorite), water

Other: Blueberries, cantaloupe

Recipe: Simple Summer Pasta

2009-07-27T01:32:00.001+11:00

SIMPLE SUMMER PASTA
Serves 4
320 Calories per serving

Ingredients

8 ounces of dried whole wheat angel hair pasta, cooked

1 bunch of asparagus, steamed

8 Kalamata olives, pitted

½ cup fresh flat-leaf parsley

1 T extra-virgin olive oil

1 T fresh thyme leaves

Zest of 1 lemon, chopped

One 3-inch piece orange zest, chopped

¼ t crushed red-pepper flakes (optional)

1 can butter beans, rinsed and drained (2 cups)

½ t fresh lemon juice

Coarse salt and ground pepper to taste

Instructions

While pasta is cooking, combine olives, parsley, olive oil, thyme, lemon zest, orange zest, and red-pepper flakes in the bowl of a food processor fitted with the steel blade. Pulse until a chunky puree forms.

Add to pasta, beans, asparagus and toss to combine. Add cooking water if necessary. The sauce should cling to ribbons of pasta but should not be dry. Serve immediately.

For longer storage keep puree separate from pasta in an air-tight container and processes in small 2-3 day batches.

Update: Persistence Pays Off

2009-07-27T01:25:00.001+11:00

School

I’m in full swing with my second session of summer classes, actually coming to the close of chemistry. My final is this Thursday. Thus far, I have done better than I thought I might. That isn’t to say I haven’t made every effort at getting a good grade, just that in the past despite my best efforts I sill was only able to get a B or so. Thus far I am averaging an A, which is nothing short of astounding to me.

I am taking a second class, as I mentioned, Psychology of Aging. It is moderately interesting but not difficult. It is truly frustrating how slowly the class is moving. The instructor has no control of class discussions and lets them spiral out and take over the three hours of class each night. But it’s a pre-req and it was a good class to take while I was killing myself with chemistry.

Health & Wellness

I’ve been able to fit 2 days of running and one day of Powerflex, the aerobic weight training class. One thing I have found is the less I run in a week, the more effective it is when I do run. I think I may keep my cardio down to 2-3 days a week.

Nutrition is going well. Coming up with new recipes every week. I’m going to build a blog solely dedicated to all the vegan goodness I come up with. Keep a look out for it.

Employment

Unemployment was just granted Friday. I was approved for a supported training program where they will give me unemployment each week to attend school, which is absolutely perfect. My first check arrived that day also. I’m in a much rosier place now.

I’ve been helping a friend out every once and again as a bartender at his place in Attleboro. Ask me when I’ll be there and come visit!

My financial aid for the summer was finally approved and should possibly be at the school for Monday, meaning - I can finally pay off the tuition I had to put on my credit cards at the beginning of the summer.

Personal Practice

Still no active pursuit of daily meditation on my part. I try and remain mindful as always. Once chemistry ends this week, I hope to build up a strong daily commitment before classes begin again in the fall.

Social Life

Looking forward to CTRF starting in a few weeks. Looks to be a blast!

The bar is providing me ample opportunity to be social, which I really enjoy.

I saw Harry Potter but wont go into details, no worries. I enjoyed it of course but was a bit thrown with how choppy it all was… friends who have recently reread the series assure me it was similar in the book. But seriously, how does HP get away with half of what he does and not get kicked out of school?!

I went to the beach yesterday for the first time in who knows how long… and it was brilliant. I for got how much relaxation comes from such a simple act as laying in the sun near water. There tentative plans to create a mini-vacation before school starts since I cannot go to Pennsic. I’m toying with the idea of beachy-camping maybe. Something outdoors and active.

Bits & Bobs

Brought the computer in… it was a bad airport card. Fixed now. Yay.

Garden is alright. The extra water and too little sun has not done well by it.

I’m on the lookout for a small square (medical style) freezer… any one hears of anything let me know.

- Namaste all.

Recipe: Curried Tofu

2009-07-22T00:46:00.002+11:00

CURRIED TOFU
Serves 4
175 Calories per serving

Marinade

Ingredients
½ cup vegetable broth
3 T rice vinegar
2 t olive oil
2 T soy sauce
4 T curry powder
1 t cumin seeds
1 T mirin/sweet white wine
1 pound extra-firm tofu, pressed and sliced into 8 pieces ( cut it thru the middle horizontally and then with 2 diagonals vertically)

Instructions
Preheat oven to 400 *F
Blend marinade ingredients then marinade tofu (I like zip-locks bags) for 60 minutes minimum.
Place the tofu on a baking sheet a single layer thick. Back for 20 minutes, then flip and bake for another 20 minutes. Place in broiler for extra chewiness.

Recipe: Tamarind Lentils

2009-07-21T13:15:00.001+11:00

TAMARIND LENTILS

Serves 4

108 Calories per serving

Ingredients

2 t coconut oil

3 cloves garlic, minced

1” cube of ginger, minced

1 onion, diced

1 t garam masala

½ t cumin seeds

1 t cumin powder

1 cup dried red lentils

2 cups vegetable broth

2 t tamarind paste

1 T maple syrup

2 T tomato paste

½ t salt

Instructions

Saute spices in oil until fragrant. Then add garlic and ginger until lightly browned, then add the onion. Saute the onion until transparent. Add lentils and broth, bring to a boil and then cover and simmer for 25 minutes. Stir occasionally until tender. Add tamarind, syrup, tomato sauce, and salt. Simmer another 5 minutes.

Recipe: Fattoush Salad

2009-07-21T12:19:00.001+11:00

FATTOUSH SALAD

Serves 4

40 Calories per serving of salad with dressing

SALAD

Ingredients

1 red onion

4 T mint, minced

4 T cilantro, minced

1 cucumber, chopped

1 c grape tomatoes

Instructions

Combine in a bowl and toss.

DRESSING

Ingredients

1 t garlic, minced

¼ c fresh lemon juice

1 T rice wine vinegar

¾ t cumin powder

1 t olive oil

water, optional

Instructions

Combine ingredients in a food processor/blender and blend until combined. Add extra water as necessary, however, very little dressing is needed to give the salad a string flavor.

Vegan-on-a-Shoestring: Week 4

2009-07-20T11:23:00.000+11:00

Week 4

Breakfast: Apple granola, almond milk, banana

Morning Snack: Apple, carrot sticks

Lunch: Curried tofu, tamarind lentils, brown basmati rice

Afternoon Snack: Larabar

Dinner: Fatoosh salad with Middle Eastern nut “cheese”

Beverages: almond milk, stevia-sweetened iced tea, water

Other: Blueberries, square of dark chocolate

Note #1: This week's meal requires an investment in some pricier items... coconut oil, tamarind paste, nuts... but these are really an investment. You'll use the oil and paste for quite a few things if you like indian/thai food as much as I do.

Note #2: I have decided to expand my budget to $50 per week for 6-7 servings of each meal.

Recipe: Vegan Coleslaw

2009-07-13T06:52:00.003+11:00

Raw Vegan Coleslaw
SERVES 4

2 shredded cabbage OR shredded broccoli mix, lightly steamed
4 T raisins
1/4 cup "liquid gold" dressing

Combine ingredients in a bowl and stir.

Calories: 120 Calories per serving

Recipe: Golden Elixir Dressing

2009-07-13T06:50:00.005+11:00

Liquid Gold Elixir
MAKES 1/2 CUP or 6 3T servings

1/4 cup fresh lemon juice
1 cloves of garlic
2 t minced ginger
2 t nama shoyu
1 T olive oil
2 t raw honey

Place all ingredients but oil in blender. Blend at a normal speed slowly adding the oil. Add water as needed. Recipes keeps for one week in the fridge.

Calories: 40 Calories per 3T serving

Recipe: 'Modified' American Potato Salad

2009-07-13T06:47:00.003+11:00

'Modified' American Potato Salad
SERVES 4

4 medium potatoes
1 T cider vinegar
1/4 cup nayonaisse
1/4 t celery seed
1/4 t dry mustard
2 t hot water
2 celery stalks, chopped
1 red bell pepper, chopped
1/2 medium onion, diced
4 baby gherkins, cut into smal slices
scallions, thinly sliced (optional)
1/2 T parsley, chopped
pinch paprika

Boil potatoes and once tender but still warm, chop them into 1" cubes. Drizzle with vinegar then set aside.

Combine nayonnaise, celery seed, mustard, 1/2 teaspoon of salt, and black pepper in a large bowl; whisk to combine. Thin mixture with hot water, if desired. Stir in reserved potatoes, celery, red pepper, onion, pickles, scallions, and chopped parsley. Chill for 30 minutes before serving. Garnish with paprika.

Calories: 220 per serving

Vegan-On-a-Shoestring: Week 3

2009-07-13T06:28:00.006+11:00

WEEK 3

high fiber | low fat | high protein | vegan | around 1500 calories

Breakfast: whole wheat english muffins with cream cheese and raspberry preserves

Morning Snack: carrot sticks, orange

Lunch: 'modified' american potato salad, broccoli-slaw

with sauteed "chicken"

Afternoon Snack: fruity soy yogurt

Dinner: thai ginger tofu salad

Beverages: homemade iced tea, tea/coffee with almond milk

Vegan Recipe: Mediterranean Pasta Salad

2009-07-07T12:26:00.003+11:00

Mediterranean Pasta Salad
MAKES 4 SERVINGS

2 heads of broccoli, in florets
1 zucchini, sliced
1 t garlic, minced
8 oz penne pasta
1 T lemon juice
2 oz pitted Kalamata olives, halved
3 T fresh parsley, chopped
1 t dried oregano
4 oz jarred roasted red peppers, thinly sliced
chopped walnuts (optional)

Preheat oven to 450 degrees. Toss florets, zucchini, garlic, and a small amount of oil; season with salt and pepper. Spread in a single layer and roast until tender and beginning to brown, 15 to 20 minutes. Set aside. Cook and drain pasta; rinse under cold water until cool, and drain. Place in bowl. Toss in broccoli, zucchini, red peppers, olives, lemon juice, and spices (walnuts). Serve at room temperature or chilled

Calories per serving: 350

Vegan-On-a-Shoestring: Week 2

2009-07-06T22:11:00.003+11:00

Week 2. Enjoy. I'd never be able to stay within budget without Trader Joe's.

The qualifications are as follows:

my weekly budget is $30 - $40 (for just myself)
the meals must be healthy: low in sodium and saturated fat, high in fiber and protein
a daily meal plan should be around 1500 - 1600 (on days I do not exercise)

WEEK 2

Caloric Total: Around 1,500

(depending on preparation and specific ingredients)

Breakfast: 2 Whole Wheat Mini-Bagels with Tofutti Cream Cheese, Peach/Nectarine

Morning Snack: Apple Sauce, Carrots (3)

Lunch: Sliced Cucumber, Mediterranean Pasta Salad (Recipe to follow)

Afternoon Snack: Caramel Rice Cake, Plum

Dinner: "Hot Dog" (2), Ear of Corn, Collard Greens, Blueberries

Beverages: Water, A Cup of Almond Milk

Update: Everything in Perspective

2009-07-06T11:38:00.001+11:00

School

Final grade for A&P I is an… A!

I’m very pleased about that. I’ve also asked the instructor to write a recommendation to my prospective colleges.

All ready started in on my chemistry course. It’s a challenge, as math has never been my strong point. I get the gist of what I am intending to accomplish, its just shifting all those little digits around… its tricky. I prefer body parts they have an apparent purpose and place. All the same, I hope to get an A- in chemistry. A would be nice, but I’m not going to kill myself. Its difficult enough to do 18 hours class time of chemistry a week and then hours and hours of work at home.

My psychology course begins tomorrow. The psychology of aging. I had childhood and adolescence but they wanted adult/elderly psych in addition for the pre-req. Psychology has always been enjoyable to me, and good grades are usually quite attainable. I’m hoping this course will be the same, as I don’t know if I could handle two difficult accelerated summer courses.

Health & Wellness

I’m trying to run minimally 5 miles 2x a week and at least 1 day of weight/resistance training. I’ve been successful so far. It really is crucial to my stress levels that I keep active.

Someone mentioned how easy it is to become an aerobics instructor. I’m considering it. The classes are no more difficult than teaching a dance class and it would be great motivation.

Food. Same as it was last post. Still kinda poor… still a health nut. I’ll be posting this week’s vegan-on-a-shoestring. That about covers that.

Employment

No job. No unemployment. I won’t lie and say that I’m not worried. But I am hoping the Universe/government comes through soon.

There may be a small side gig in the works involving costume building. More to follow on that.

Personal Practice

I thought about deleting this section, since I would still have to say non-existent. But it forces me to own up to the fact that I haven’t been taking my practice to heart.

I did have a moment of tonglen the other night while watching “Taken”. To see those poor women forced to endure such horrific treatment and to know that is going on for thousands of people, everyday, all over the world, even here in America it plunged me into a dark reflection on the nature of humanity.

Tonglen: (excerpt of Pema Chodron) The core of the practice: breathing in other's pain so they can be well and have more space to relax and open, and breathing out, sending them relaxation or whatever you feel would bring them relief and happiness.

I used this practice of tonglen to try and live for a moment with the pain that others feel, to not instinctually shut down or try to stop the thought that was making me extremely uncomfortable. It gave me some insight for a moment. As I mentioned previously, I've made a bit of a vow to myself after watching this film: my end goal is to have my future job (nurse/nurse practitioner) in some way work with international relief efforts. If ever I start to slack at school, thinking passing is good enough, I'm going to watch something like this. Something that contains the sobering reality of what life is like for so many people.

Social Life

Fight workshop was a blast. No surprise there. (me + sword + fight partner = happy)

I had the pleasure of attending the 4^th of July festivities with a friend at the Harvard Club in Downtown Boston. The party took place on some high floor of the Federal Building giving us a perfect view of the show. There was an artist who did a cartoon of my friend and I, which was really cute. One of the staff saw to it that I had something I could eat and had the chef prepare me a special plate of brilliant grilled veggies with a simple but nonetheless delightful scallion basmati rice. And for dessert: cocktails and a fresh fruit plate. Definitely and experience I hope to relive next year.

Bits & Bobs

Still haven’t brought computer in. *sigh* And now I have even less time.

Despite the handle, the car passed inspection. (Thank you little man on Chandler St.)

Garden needs some upkeep. Oops. I was supposed to do that today… maybe Tuesday after I finish my homework?

Namaste all.

Vegan-on-a-Shoestring: Week 1

2009-06-28T09:03:00.003+11:00

So as a lazy and now very poor, health conscious vegan, I have to do a great deal of strategic planning when it comes to my meals. To stay within budget I plan my weekly shopping trip - what I need from each store and roughly how much it should be. I do not deviate from the list.

The qualifications are as follows:

my weekly budget is $30 or so (for just myself)
the meals must be healthy: low in sodium and saturated fat, high in fiber and protein
a daily meal plan should be around 1500 - 1600 (on days I do not exercise)

I have decided to share my weekly planning with the web at large, mostly due to the fact that this information is difficult to find and if I can save someone the hassle - all the better.

So here goes...

WEEK 1

Caloric Total: Around 1,600

(depending on preparation and specific ingredients)

Breakfast: Cereal with almond milk, Banana

Morning Snack: Carrots (3))

Lunch: Whole Wheat Hummus and Veggie Wrap

Afternoon Snack: Fruity Soy Yogurt

Dinner: Chocolate strawberry protein shake & Salad with white beans and pineapple salsa

Extras: Rice Cakes (2), Nectarine

Update: A life beyond books… Is it possible?

2009-06-26T09:57:00.001+11:00

School

Got an A on my Muscular/Skeletal Systems exam. 2 down, 1 to go. For which, I will be studying later this evening. I really like that my hard work has paid off and that the study habits I cultivated 6 years ago, haven’t disappeared completely. Have to admit I’m nervous about starting Chemistry on Monday. I’m more anxious about doing two accelerated classes at once. But you do what you have to right? I

All this said, I am loving my course of study and I think I’ll love nursing. Its everything I enjoy: meaningful content, practical study, and its all about how things function, which is always nifty.

All in all, this is my life right now. It’s demanding but I always love a challenge. I also enjoy the hyper focus that comes with such things… it proves how little you need in your life to be happy - some down time, good friends, food.

Health & Wellness

As I said previously, I’ve had to cut back a bit on my gym time. And I can no longer fit Powerflex into my schedule. But I will percivere! I’m still running and doing some weight training. And I can’t say how much I’m looking forward to the fit workshop this weekend… no bones, or neurons, or obscure little muscles. Well, not unless I pull one.

As far as vegan dining is concerned… I’m poor. Can’t afford to be extravagant. But Trader Joe’s is a blessing. I prefer fresh, raw meals… but I’m settling for veggie chili and frozen veggies. Still healthy, but not as much so. I’m thinking about posting my weekly meal plans for other folks on a vegan shoestring budget. I’ve not found a lot of resources.

Employment

Still not employed. Still not receiving unemployment. Things are getting tight. But just got to muddle through. Friends and family have been generous when called upon and that’s been really crucial. I hate asking for anything though. I applied today to be a promo girl on Friday and Saturday afternoons. Its fits my schedule and pays well. I’ve determined I need only $100.00 a week to survive.

Personal Practice

Non-existant. I might get time to read a sentence or two of the emails from Tricycle I get on a daily basis. Might help with the stress though…

Social Life

Went to a reunion for my childhood dance company (PASOW). Folks haven’t really changed… well except for marriage and kids and such. But their essence remained the same. We all seemed to just click back into place. There were a few faces missing, but that was not to be helped. A good time all the same.

I went to Pirate Faire and it was chock full of awesome. Except for the damp cold weather. But it was worth it to see such a great performance. You folks should be proud.

So looking forward to CTRF this weekend. I get to see all my peeps and play with swords. What more could a girl want?

Bits & Bobs

Still transferring things over to the new computer, now named Samsara. It has a poor reception for wireless. I’m hoping to bring it in to an Apple store next Wednesday after class and before game.

Car is going in for inspection tomorrow.

Garden is going well. Lettuce didn’t work out, but the peppers and tomtatoes are doing fine.

That’s about it really. Namaste all.

VegWorcester Announcement: All-you-can-eat Vegan Buffet

2009-06-20T12:25:00.004+11:00

Update: More of the Same

2009-06-16T23:30:00.001+11:00

School

I got an A on my first exam, which is worth nearly 1/3 of my final grade. *does dance of joy and nerdiness*

The next exam is going to be really intense… the entire skeletal and muscular system in 2 weeks. As much fun as you can imagine it might be. I’m longing for more time to absorb the information. I really enjoy learning about A&P and I am constantly in awe of just how astounding our bodies really are.

Still planning on applying to Annamaria and MCPHS in Worcester. I have my Chemistry I course half approved (by MCPHS not Worcester State yet) It begins on the 29^th of this month. Its MWF at Framingham State at 8:30 in the morning. I’m hoping the traffic in the mornings isn’t going to be that bad…but I am a realist.

Health & Wellness  

Still going to the gym when I can, but my back decided to act up… looks like a partially herniated disc in my lower lumbar. It’s not crippling, but I can’t do any resistance or weight training and I have to keep my runs under 4 miles. I went to see the doctor a week ago, he gave me some muscle relaxants but its still bothering me. I’m going to call today to make another appointment to request some PT.

Employment  

So… I am no longer employed. I was laid off with no notice on Wednesday. Walked in was pulled into the President’s office and told ‘your last was Monday’ and here are some forms on how to file for unemployment.

The plan is to stay on unemployment and keep my eye out for a job that really fits my needs, keeping in mind a school schedule in the fall. I wouldn’t mind getting trained as a CNA… But in the meantime, I’ll apply of course, but the next 8 weeks are really demanding as far as school is concerned.

 Personal Practice  

Still reading Pema Chodron's "Start Where You Are."

I’m hoping to take up meditation in the mornings before class on Tuesdays and Thursdays minimally. I also would like to begin doing more walking meditation.

Social Life  

Went to James’ B-day party. Always a great time. I was really excited to see distant and not-so-distant-but-never-seen friends. Had some very tasty frozen fruity drinks and a lovely chocolate amaretto smoothie. (Yes, it is as good as it sounds.)

VegWorcester just got noticed that the pamphlets will be arriving by the 19th. All day vegan buffet at Buddha Hut is on! It will be on July 11^th from 12-7. Please come! I’ll be putting up more info and a poster on all my various social networks.

Bellydancing is over, but I plan to continue my studies with the help of YouTube and videos in my spare time. (hahahaha…)

 Bits & Bobs  

The computer is now being transferred into. Looks like the permission issue was mysteriously fixed by Chris.

Still working on getting a 'new' copy of Photoshop.  

Garden is still delightful. No produce yet… but then again its only been a few weeks. The rain has my job so much easier.

Went to see “Drag Me To Hell” by Sam Raimi. It was good in an amazingly gross way. Not a ‘real’ horror film, more of a thrill with some comedy thrown in. Very much in his genre of cult classic.

Update: Head Full of Latin and Wallet Full of Nothin'

2009-06-08T10:59:00.004+11:00

School

I've started class at WSC. Anatomy and Physiology - Part I in 6 weeks. Yay. My mind is just a container for obscure words and chemical reactions at the moment. So don't expect me to store anything else in it.

As far as the future plans go... things are fluid. (Aren't they always) I'm going to try and cram in two classes in the next summer session and apply to two seperate programs: the accelerated BSN at Mass. School of Pharmacology and Health Sciences, and the Asso. of Nursing at Anna Maria. Both are pricey, but both will get me RN status in under two years. That is more important in the long run.

Health & Wellness

I've had to cut back on the gym with my schedule. I'm down to 4-5 days a week. I feel like a slacker. Ah well. My diet is the same. Been cutting the juicing though in the morning - too time consuming and too expensive. Replaced it with plain soy yogurt, fresh fruit and some granola. Still tasty. I feel like staying in shape is an uphill battle with no plateau. I thought that I could be a little less mindful of what I ate when I worked out so much, but my metabolism disagrees. *sigh*

Employment

Still employed. Thats a good thing.

I had to cut down to 3 -3.5 days a week. Which as you might guess has made a heavy dent in my finances. Try to cut costs everywhere can. Even so I splurged this weekend and bought both an iron and B12 supplement and a skirt (at the thrift store, like always). I'm outta control.

Modeling has been put to the back burner for a while. If I get paying gigs then yay, but otherwise, I cannot afford the time spent doing it. Hopefully, I'll be getting paid gigs. It would be nice right about now.

Personal Practice

I've been reading Pema Chodron's "Start Where You Are." Appropriate really. But when aren't all of her books applicable to daily life? Meditated a few times, here and there. Trying to do more so, it helps with studying.

Social Life

Went to a few parties recently - 1920's party for a friend's b-day and then a going away party for a friend moving away for school. Good times were had by all. If you're curious the photos are usually on Facebook somewhere.

VegWorcester is doing really well. Pamphlets should be arriving any day now. We are having out first general meeting this week. And we put up several awareness stands (like the Metro kind) at key points around Worcester. (City Hall, Irish Times, Tortilla Sam's and Da Lat). Go check them out, they are outstanding!

Bits & Bobs

The computer.... is slowly being integrated into my daily life. Still struggling with transferring files. Damn permissions. Slowly but surely. I also need to get a 'new' copy of Photoshop.

Garden is coming along nicely. The beans and cukes are already over 2" tall and the tomato plants have little yellow flowers.

Still haven't done my website but I might be working with someone to make that happen. It'd be cool, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it.

Shout Out

So... I'm in need of a printer for school.. nothing fancy, preferably Epson. If anyone has one they don't need and want to help a girl out that'd be nice of you.

Also, does anyone know where I could get a used medical cube freezer?